...with something you do excitingly, it becomes a real letdown in the end and though you were enjoying the process, just because of the result you start to dislike the whole...instead you find it in smaller things... Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic VS Cave Story...

And so I beat Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic II after some years...I think I started it 2007 or maybe even in the end of 2006, I'm not even sure about that but I just beat it 2 weeks ago. And when I beat the game, I felt really big letdown...so here is the reason;

After I beat KotOR, I beat it again because it was magnificent and became one of my favorite games. So with this huge hype, I started KotOR2... To be honest, I felt big letdown just at the beginning... what happened to the colors ? Why everything became green instead of blue ? Why everything became so big that covers the quarter of the screen ? And why my character runs like his upper body is sticked in air and different from lower body... I played abit and I liked breaking/creating stuff but those colors were overwhelming...I just couldn't play it after I saved Atton, so I stopped just at the beginning... after few weeks I tried it again and failed... few months later I started playing and actually was left the miner facility at last but in the second planet I left the game again...after few weeks later I managed to reach that second planet's halfway but I left the game in somewhere like facility for a long time...

And at last the last month, I decided to pick up my game from where its left... Now I forgot how was KotOR's screen and KotOR2's green huge HUD screen was not irritating me anymore. I was like hungry for KotOR so I started to play seriously this time... More I played, more I liked the game and at last I reached the point everything was under my control, at last I learned I can make my teammates Jedi and at last I learned KotOR2's true story... It was again magnificent, the story was so great, to be able to make my allies Jedi was absolutely amazing and everything in my actions or even dialogues were effecting something. I was again captivated by KotOR story and universe because the real story was just continuing from different view. It was so good that made me felt great again, I tried to make all my allies Jedi, built my characters according to that and I was enjoying the game ALOT...

And the mission before the last... I just couldn't believe what happened, was my game corrupted ? Did I do something wrong that skips some movies ? No, after my mission ended I found myself in a planet... Can you believe this ? A game that explains everything, a game that is known by its amazingly detailed texts leaves you without any explanation... You play a game, you are in a level that requires something, lets say you have to bomb a building. You set your bomb and you see the building explodes and you find yourself in another mission ? You don't see any other movie, you don't see any text that explains anything and boom you are in the last mission... I was shocked, felt dumb because I really couldn't realized what was going on... I really felt I was on the last mission but with thoughts of "how did I end up here ?" I couldn't believe that a game could be rushed this bad... All my efforts for my allies to make them Jedi, powerful were gone because in the last mission I was alone...

And after getting over the shock ( I checked the net for that, seriously ), I continued the game. I knew the game could end anytime now... Then I reached the end and beat the game but even the end was wrong... You know you can choose to be on dark side or light in Star Wars games ( at least Jedi Knight 3 and KotOR ) but its actually not dependent on a choice that is asked in the
end... Anyway, I beat the game as Obi Wan Kenobi, which is Light Side character ( I chose this name because there was really similar face, any KotOR2 player knows what I mean ) and I saw the end...

An end which hurted me so bad that I felt so empty... There is no spoiler about it so I'll say it, when you beat the game as Light Side, you see you are leaving that last planet with Ebon Hawk ( your ship ) and the credits appear... I was shocked again... I mean what was that ? This is disastrous... After playing the game for hours with joy, I felt so bad, it was definitely the biggest letdown in my games...and then I reload the game from the save in the last area and I saw the dark side end too... I had another arrow through my heart... Obsidian definitely became one of the bad companies in my black list...

On the other hand, at the same day or after one day, I dont remember exactly, I beat everyone's famous freeware game Cave Story... now that was something satisfying... This game is freeware, so you can download it anytime and can play it even on PSP.

Cave Story is truly amazing game for its genre. It is not just a platformer, it has really nice story and characters. Even 2D Castlevanias' dont have this many dialogues and depth. Basically, you have nothing in the beginning and you have no idea about anything... but as you advance in the game you get weapons, upgrades and learn the story. You can change your weapons for better versions later. But some of them are secret, at least you have to revisit some places... It has 3 different endings Bad,Normal, Good. Good ending is the hardest to get ofcourse while Bad Ending is just escaping... I saw both Bad and Normal endings and I'm planning to get Good ending too but I can say that even Normal ending was satisfying enough especially after KotOR2 disaster.

There is a game that was produced with some serious money and there is another game that was produced only by few people... Both of them are fun while playing to reach the end but the one which is satisfying is the one who was done with heart... not with people who rush to end their project... people who try to make a game for cash-in...

SW: KotOR2 is not a bad game overall, its actually great game but it has the worst ending a game can have... which kills all your enjoyment in one hit...

But I can easily recommend Cave Story to anyone, its nice, charming game and its just few clicks away...

So this is the new game people play on a website community, nice one I admit. TheLegendKnight tagged me for this, so I dont know the real expression I should show, well not important now. Ok lets do it to get over with it.

1- We put my father in hospital yesterday, so it was busy day and I stayed with him at the night. He has a tumor and soon he will have a brain surgery.

2- While I was 4-5 I spilled hot milk on me and I still have a burnt scar on my chest

3- Again while I was 5-6 I ran through a opal glassed door and I cut my arms and had operation. I still have big scars on my right arm because my arm was like totally open after all glass pour into my arm, operation was terrible I felt how did they remove the pieces from my arm when their anaesthetic affects disappeared while I was still in operation...

4- I jumped from 1 meter height towards our apartment door which is full glass and I break it with my head, luckily nothing happened.

5- I have asthma but its not a big deal now. I'm healthy enough except I can't run much

well, it was not a very pleasent blog maybe...

anyway, so here 5 people that werent tagged yet; moohmaaytah, sohail1234, ibiza563, iboo01, KittenToes

Fate is truly amazing thing when you think of it. If something will happen, it will happen even you change your decisions. You are free to choose your way, but your way ends up in one place if its the only way. Ofcourse there are many different ways too, your decision about something may have totally different destination than the other choice but sometimes whatever you choose there is only one event you'll see at the exact time. You may not believe fate, thats your belief but I do. Fate is written already but that doesn't mean you have no choice in life. Fate is like a book that tells the story advancement with your decisions on certain pages. In page two you see an option like, if you choose to walk go to page three, if you choose to go by bus go to page four. So you choose something and take a different path than other one but the writer of the book always knows what happens in the next page. Fate is already written but you have one chance to read because time cannot be bought back by anything. You encounter many choices but you can only choose one...be careful.

Today I had an accident...its funny thing. About one or two weeks since the snowy weather ended we go to work with our car, again. So I cant play PSP while going to work or returning to home. Today my father went outside directly and I followed him, said "so we are going without car" he said he wanted this way but I said "you are stumbling, is your right foot alright, lets take the car" he didnt want it at first but I persuaded him and went to garage to take the car while he was waiting in the street. I got the car and got him so we took the way we always used. Its a upward slant narrow way. Thanks to parked cars only one car can pass at a time. Anyway, the way is connected to another narrow way so its like T and we are coming from the bottom of T way. And at the same time a funeral car, which we find very funny thing when we discussed it later, comes from right to left of T way's upper part. We turn to right at the intersection then there is a left to leave that way. But since this T way is narrow cars should wait each other to not cause any trouble, crash or traffic. So you guess, our car and the funeral car crashed. Nothing happened to anyone but there is damage on both vehicles. I didnt care at that time, police came, made his analysis and told us to visit station for the results tomorrow. Its really troublesome but I just laugh at it.

Later on, while me and my father were walking to home, I said "fate is amazing thing" to my father and explained why. He out of blue chose to not take the car today even he was stumbling, on the other hand I insisted to take the car even I dont like to drive normally. Then in 5 minutes I crashed the car. I find it funny, these are just making my belief stronger.

dividing into two, not being able to decide what to do what to say, shunning from yourself... not being able to differentiate what is true what is wrong in your thoughts...

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*listening to "Korn - Helmet in the Bush" right now*

I keep asking, what's your lie?
It is disturbing
This isn't mine
Why
Days keep passing
A lot at a time
me?
I don't feel right
Please God let me sleep tonight

Everyday confronted circumvents giving in
[...sick of friends giving in]
I just wanna know why!

Don't give it up [Don't get it up]
Don't hit my stick [Don't get my stiff] [I can't escape]

I keep asking
Well, again, please try [...can we please try]
It is haunting
This takes my mind
Why
Days keep passing
Line after line
me?
I don't feel right
Please God don't let me die tonight,
die tonight, die tonight, die tonight

Please God help me
Please God save me
Please God help me from my painful situation

Please God don't let me slip in tonight, please God
Oh, please God don't let me chip in tonight, please God
Oh, please God don't let me slip in tonight, don't let me die
Please God don't let me give in tonight, don't let me die

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as I found the lyrics "Korn - It's on!" starts...

I think everyone can be depressed sometimes, at least I do. but shattering inside, having a secondary identity inside and worse, his taking possession of control... a chaos inside but showing nothing outside. A gentleman should stay calm and keep control of himself. ( "The Cranberries - Dying in the sun" starts )

Having a headache, like he is forcing to take control. even I dont want to write this blog, inside me something wants it to be written. am I losing control already ? I'm resisting though, writing these lines takes alot of time. Since the first song ( Korn - Helmet in the Bush ) four songs passed but I just noted two of them. HELP MEEE!! screams inside of me. who is screaming ? me or him ? I wont be able to figure it out, I dont even know who is writing these now, me or him ? This question comes with worse question, did I become him already ? because asking "me or him" question is really weird. ( The Staind - It's been awhile starts ) Fearing that he may reveal my secrets or at least the things I dont like people to know about. Its really dangerous bet, its like russian roulette. Curious and afraid. Why I'm not forcefully close this page ? I have no idea...stopping and thinking...I'm thinking different things and writing different things, did I lose control completely now ? ( High and Mighty Color - Ichirin no Hana ends, I skip some musics and stop at "Fight Club - This is your life" ) Fight Club !!! wow haha what a coincidence. I must add Fight Club into topic title. Did you watch Fight Club ? It was a great movie and the main character... well, for people who didnt watch it I wont tell anything. but people who watched it understood what I meant, hopefully...

I'm scared...will I be divided into two. "Me, Myself and Irene" a comedy movie. Famous comedy movie star is in it, Jim Carrey ( I just remembered his name, until my last words "star is in it" I was forcing myself to remember his name ). I wont be like him probably but I'm almost acting like him, well at least I dont lose control completely. Inside me, I'm shattered, I want many things, I want nothing, I dont want to live, my beliefs stop me thankfully. Logic is not enough sometimes, everyone should believe in something. They say wrong decision is better than having no decision, so its the same, believing in something even its wrong is better than not believing. ( Ill Nino - What comes around ( day of the dead mix ) )... or not... people are mostly stubborn, mostly, so they change their ideas hardly. People change, thats for sure, but its not easy. Which change awaits me now ?

Having so many problems and not thinking about them. Why I'm so carefree and only I remember them at these times. Having a 65 years old father,dad and while I supposed to help him I look like a burden to him. Ofcourse he doesnt think like that, or does he ? ( Korn - Cameltosis starts after some songs that I didnt note, but I skip it, it doesnt fit the mood I'm in right now, "Empriyum - The Ensemble of Silence" starts, a relaxing music until it reaches 2:10~ ) ...stopping and thinking in this relaxing music but now (the song is at 3:30 ) its not relaxing anymore, though while I was saying that in fourth minute it became slow again and I stop to think... thinking different things, with him... ( Muse - Sunburn starts ) what to write... ( Muse - Sunburn ends, skipping some musics, Korn - Dirty starts )

Thinking, thinking and thinking... what am I thinking... so many things, so many. I hurt so bad inside, I wish you you could see the world through my eyes, it stays the same, I just wanna laugh again... I thought these lines as one of the best song lyrics always. ( Evanescence - Everybody's Fool starts ) Its so true, I felt this so many times "I wish you could see the world through my eyes", I wish... ( Macross Plus - Voices (English) )

Losing yourself in your thoughts, changing subject because you just cant think what to write next on the previous subject. If I could cry, would it be helpful, would it let my pain out. People say crying helps to feel relieved, to calm down, I want to cry to calm the storm inside me ( The Cranberries - I still do ends, Puddle of Mudd - Blurry starts ), I want to push him back, take the control completely. ( Nirvana - You know you're right )

Its painful... I'm dizzy...whats happening to me... ( Apocalyptica - Beyond time )... a friend appears on msn, puts a smile on my dead face, helps me to recover from him...(Yoriko - Diamond no Hana ) a nice music starts, from Black Cat anime. while Black Cat manga was so good and number one in many manga top ten lists before its ended, anime was really bad. Manga was serious and all characters without exception were cool, but in anime, thanks to its drawing way ( sty.le word is forbidden, interesting ) , its not serious though it looks good in serious drawings. Also they changed some things and added additional bad things. ( Avril Lavigne - I'm with you ; Ils - Feel the addiction ) from where to where, conflicting musics...

I think I took the control now, though he desperately screams about somethings, I'm in charge. Though my headache gets bigger, I wont mind him. When I look at above what I write, I dont want to post it but in some way, he makes me think this as a way of showing true feelings. Should I post it or not, will I regret later ? but why ? ( Silent Hill 2 - Theme of Laura ; Madonna - Frozen )...You're frozen, when your heart is not open... yes I am...

I'm losing it again, why, what should I do? How should I know,if I would know it I would take control earlier.(the Cranberries - Dreaming my dream ) ...lost in thoughts again...just so many things to think and nothing to do right now. later on I wont remember anything. I dont use cigarette, alcohol, drugs etc. but now I act like I'm high. its because of him, dividing me into two. Just Get OUT OF MY HEAD! ( Berserk - Sign )... I didnt touch my ps2 since ... I dont even remember, is it because of that ? addiction ?? no it cant be.

I'm just lost... I cant even write now. but still I'll post this. (Liquid Tension Experiment - Biaxident ) I dont know how much time I spent here and actually I still see this blog post as an embarrassing post but, oh well... enjoy a freak's diary... and the end is with a great song, Anathema - Angelica...

Yesterday I just noticed ( again ) how I am addicted to gaming. I was returning to home from work and while I was on train, on steamboat, on minibus I was playing with my psp. While waiting for the steamboat, I couldnt wait and opened my psp and started to play while standing, at that moment I said this to myself, addicted to gaming...

Is being addicted bad thing ? Or good ? Does it give you any advantage or disadvantage ? So the good, the bad and the ugly ?? Or the main question, does it bother you ?

My gaming addiction doesnt bother me, however when I think about it , what I gain from this addiction ? Playing with a handheld console may not be a problem because I do it while traveling so it just fills the empty space. If I wouldnt play it, I wouldnt do anything, just would look at the others, environment etc. If you say "read a book"; I cant read any book while traveling because it gives me headache and its real trouble for eyes. Handheld consoles are friendly in killing the wasted time, but the main consoles are killing your worthy time. Shame on me, I'm still doing it with pleasure. I'm mostly playing with my ps2 in my free times instead of doing something productive, useful. I know some people that do useful things in their free time. They work and when they go home, they work on their own projects or try to learn different things. Why I cant do this ? Why do I start playing at the moment I enter my room?...Feel the addiction... so this is the same as heroin, cigarrette, alcohol users, when they become addicted they just cant stop using it. Even they know its hazardous, zero benefits they still do, like we all do. They do those and kill their most beautiful possessions, I play games and kill my most precious, priceless moments that cant be returned. Even health can be regained, even the cancer is defeated but one moment cannot be regained, when its gone, its over. Future becomes now, now becomes past and while you try to figure out what happened you look at the mirror and see an old person. So the game is over, there is nothing you can do after that point.

Argh, its so good... Even I say those above, still I just cant stop gaming. The games really make me happy, when I finish a game, if its good I feel different, happy. The problem and the best part is, I feel the games. When I play a game, I live it. I live in that game, so it effects me more, my feelings become real, thus the games make me more happy than normal. Since I feel like that way, I want to jump in more adventures and live in a different world. Each game is a different world and with each travel I want to see more. So this becomes addiction. Its not real but it feels real. And after seeing wise things in a game, I become amazed and enjoyed...

This is dangerous! Here it goes...I'm unplugged from my brain, what I was thinking... Games, addiction, blog ?? Not really... I just couldnt find the right word to continue. So lets continue with this question, is enjoyment what you live for ? So when you enjoy, there is no need to be useful; people out there suffer, die and who cares, you just enjoy your time because they wont stop anyway, right ? Doctors are real useful people eh ? Well not just them, every person is useful, every work helps something. Without leaving the subject, after your work hours end what do you do, what do people do in their free time ? Enjoy yourself so you can close your eyes, ears to the real world and forget everything? Or do you want to do something useful?BTW, what are useful things anyway? Reading a book is useful, no matter what kind of it. It gives ideas, history, knowledge, etc. at least a rich vocablory in your mind. Searching for knowledge or useful things for yourself and learning, using them is no doubt the best. Or working even in your free time, on your research or whatever you want to finish. Useful things eh, but not so many people succeed in this. Many people do it, many many people. They work on researches so they can find a cure for a virus .............................................blank.........

What am I trying to say? Do I repeat myself ?... I really wonder now, what will this blog accomplish? Will I be changed If majority here says do something useful instead of gaming ? Addiction.. " An addict is worse than a berserk" is really dangerous thing as this saying shows. If someone goes berserk, he/she may calm down later but an addict cant give up on his/her addiction. So how to beat an addiction ? Willpower, thats for sure and thats the thing I lack. I - Do - Not - Want - To - Stop - Playing - Games! They are good, they make feel good. They are empty, take my money ,more importantly take my time, the most precious thing in the world and in return, they give nothing. Only feelings that wont help you in anything, but will fool you. But still, I will continue playing games. What will you do ? At least, I know what I am doing and I'm aware of I'm just useless or not beneficial to anyone, are you even aware of what you do ?

BTW, I have a headache now and I'm terribly sorry if I'm senseless in my blog post here. I wouldnt write this note but I feel like guilty because of confusing people who read this, if its not clear. I just wanted to point something, it become bigger, jumped on different things and got out of my hand it seems, but still I would like to read your thoughts about all these stuff.

--PS: I dont mean normal working because working is for living, so you can get money to eat and feed your family.And I dont mean thinking, researching while working because its in your daily shift that you must complete.--

and here i am, HI!

well, it seems since my last post 5 months 13 days passed. WOW ? well not really because when i look at it now, it seems like minutes. time is something terrible, frightening...it plays with you. while in prensent state you think it flows slowly but when you reach future and your present moments become past, you see as time flows so fast. i just remember what was i doing 5 minutes ago clearly, so do you and i remember exactly what was i doing 5 months ago. i was absent here, i mean home but when i came back i really felt like did i even leave for 5 minutes. i understand old people better now. whenever someone would say "time flows fast", i would say "i live it like moments and remember every moment so its slow for me"... my brain remembers what it wants and when it remember old times clearly, i realize that time flows fast really. its just a mind trick...hmm a mind trick ? so does this mean my brain doesnt want to remember those 5 months ? it seems so ( hmm, before that I was living a good life and i was remembering these short past times ? its nice to notice ? ). so when people remember their old good days clearly and look at their present state, they say woah it just happened like 5 minutes ago but when they add reality into it, one thing become certain, time is something that we never know its true value and slips through our hands while we dont even try to hold. the time between those moments, days, weeks, months, years passes like minutes when you look back, so start to learn how to use your time and even you cant hold the time, just use it to not regret later.

the weird thing is when you come back and see some troubles, you find them like they happened because you were not there, they appeared silently to trouble you, they were waiting for you to leave so they can appear and when you come back you would find that its already late and you cant do anything... its weird, why the feel of hero ? the world just continues to live, they would happen anyway even if you were around, but "would you be able to stop them?" question comes and makes you the hero in your dreamy thoughts, if i were here etc etc. even its true, its now in the past, look above--> time flows fast...

and here we are since my last post 5 minutes ago...I still remember the story and where was I, so i continue to play Final Fantasy XII without any problem. though i play it slowly, i'll beat it eventually its a great game, i just realized again. i missed this game and my ps2 so its our reunion party maybe i should play different games too but i just cant stop when i start that game.

PS3 seems still the same and when will Metal Gear Solid 4 be released...PS3 needs definitely better games to impress people because now I start to think MGS4,GT5,FFXIII wont be enough to save PS3. come to think of it, Xbox360 has just few games too, Mass Effect, Eternal Sonata, Forza Motorsports 2 but if i buy a xbox360 there will be non-exclusive games that i can get too so Xbox360 seems easy to get. but since i want to buy a PS3 when MGS4 makes it appearence, i think i dont need xbox360. these thoughts are all PS3's fault to not become a better console yet...

it seems some friends here left. they have their reasons ofcourse its sad and i wouldnt want that happen ( not the hero feeling ) . The_Great_Samus and ibiza563, i was not here when you left so i have no idea about reasons but good luck and i wish you have good lives out there, take care and have fun

so this is my arrival here on gamespot. i checked 1-2 times before but now i'm back totally. thank you sohail1234 and moohmaaytah for fast PMs. in the end, i think its fun to be here : )

-----To skip FFXII part and to read the main point of my blog just read paragraph that starts after stars ( * ) -----

Well well...I never thought i may like Final Fantasy XII this much. Even still my favorite is Final Fantasy VIII, I admit Final Fantasy XII is the best Final Fantasy game to date. Square Enix really made such a great game with previous experiences and now they put a mature game before us. From graphics to musics, characters to story I dont see anything annoying in this game. Vaan and Penelo are 17-year-old kids and they act as they are. Story is not flowing fast nor slow, its going smoothly but it uses heavy language so I see so many people say the story is confusing while its so clear. Thats why its mature, not suitable for childish audience. Yes it may be not something so new, but is "saving the world" theme new ? Final Fantasy VIII didnt had "lets save the world" theme until its end, it was about mercenaries, war and the main point was the love. That is the reason i see Final Fantasy VIII so special and its story development was perfect, you were a mercenary and go out for mission, then another and the story goes smoothly. Also if you dont do any sidequests there is no break in the game unlike all other Final Fantasy games. All Final Fantasy games have a break point which makes me annoyed because it makes me wander around for nothing...

Final Fantasy XII offers a story about war and conspiracy, political games to seize the power. The different characters with amazing voice acting make everything alive and amazing in cutscenes. When you play the game if you can control yourself and stay with only the story you can enjoy the story but Final Fantasy XII offers something so great that makes everything in the game stay in shadows, Gameplay. Since Final Fantasy VIII, I never played a Final Fantasy game like this. I would probably go over 100 hours in FFXII ( the only game I played over 100 hours is Final Fantasy VIII ) if i would have time. I think I'm not in the middle of the game or maybe in the middle but i spent already 70+ hours. There is no head banging battle musics for the first time in a Final Fantasy game because all previous FF games had terrible battle music. In FFXII you can feel the greatness of Chrono series' musics and Vagrant Story musics' calmness. The musics may not be listenable outside the game but in the game, they are perfect match.

The best thing in Final Fantasy XII is obviously gameplay but the world size is something so great too. All places are linked together so you can walk from world's west end to east end except the sky city Bhujerba. All maps are so big and amazingly beautiful. Desert makes you feel you are really in desert, mystical forests are amazing and the architectural places greatly designed. They started this with FFX but they couldnt complete it and didnt make the world linked like in FFXII. Final Fantasy XII's huge world is definitely amazing...

The gameplay of Final Fantasy is no more random encounter based, now the game is presented us as a whole. Getting rid of fixed camera and letting player to watch the scenery was really good addition. In battles, instead of pressing X button even without looking at it, you can make it automated if you want. But still you can play it like old style by entering all commands as you wish each time. You can even cancel automatic commands by entering your own commands. In Final Fantasy XII, you have total control now, you can either make it automatic or manual or semi-automatic. You can run around bosses, set your characters to different spots and can avoid AoE attacks which is great. There are many different strategies in Final Fantasy XII and in this game, like early Final Fantasy games, status effects are really effective. Since Final Fantasy VII, status effects were was not threat nor effective, personally I never had problem in them except FFVIII Malboro fight because Malboro in FFVIII was huge... In Final Fantasy XII, now status effects are really pain, especially Oil and Disease... This puts some more challenge which is fun.

The foes you fight are at your level, you dont have problem if you face 1 foe with 3 people in your party but when they come with 3-4 people you try to defeat them while trying to survive. If they appear as higher levels, you have really hard time and if a rare game ( rare monster ) appears around you find yourself dead...While I was wandering in an area full of foes around my level, I didnt notice a rare game and when I killed a foe, I continued to my path but when that rare game attacked me all my 3 characters died, i changed the party and started to run but to dead end ... so game over. I was amazed, not frustrated because its good to see hardship and i just paid the price for not being careful.

There are many many sidequests in Final Fantasy XII. There are 80 rare games which are hard and it has a sidequest about it, like collecting trophies of them. This is already big enough there is a hunting sidequest too that gives you 45 mark huntings and most of them are harder than bosses, I bet it can be even rival to Monster Hunter as a non-online game. There is small Final Fantasy 1 game in Final Fantasy XII too. Final Fantasy 1's last boss Chaos can be obtainable as Esper ( summon ) in a sidequest with a story like; When Nabudis fell 3 strong beasts appeared. 3 Sages fought them and managed to seal them in ruins of Nabudis, but with each passing day the seals are getting weaker. The prophecy says "brave warriors will appear and slay the beasts". So in this sidequest after you obtain the medallions for seals you fight those 3 beasts and as the last one Chaos. Final Fantasy 1's story was about 4 brave warriors will appear to end the chaos in the world. So i find this sidequest amazing. There are many sidequests in Final Fantasy XII and these are really showing how Square Enix worked for FFXII to give players a huge game. Final Fantasy XII is really an idol RPG for its genre.

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The sad thing is I couldnt finish Final Fantasy XII yet and I wont be able to play any game for 6 months. Actually, I wont be able to do anything in next 6 months. There is something I must do, so I wont be around for 6 months. Who lives, who dies none of us can know it, so I just wanted to write this. I didnt plan to talk about Final Fantasy XII but when I sat on my computer, I just wrote it. I wanted to write a review about it but I couldnt even finish the game. Actually I wanted to write so many reviews but it just doesnt happen. I like to be here on Gamespot, reading people's ideas and giving my ideas. The funny or sad thing is there are so many young people here that think their thoughts, tastes are absolute and they cant listen each other. Funnier thing is when they cant understand something they think it as bad. This is beyond being childish...

Yes all of us think we are right but arguing about those stuffs are weird ? For example, FFXII was clear and the makers of it made it so people can understand it, if you cant understand it why do you blame the game or makers ? Yes you may not understand it, there are many people that dont understand many different things but they dont blame others because they cant understand. I just want to point that if you are at fault when you blame others you only make yourself look bad.

My first blog post was about same topics like overrated games, which FF game is the best etc. Nothing changed since then, same topics, so i got used to it. But trying to destroy a well known game is ridiculous, the last example was GoW is so overrated. Yes, when DMC appeared there was no such a game, so GoW is copy of DMC right ? then we should stop all RPGs ? we should stop all sports games ?

GoW is better than DMC because it is an epic adventure. You are not hero this time, you anti-hero that tries to kill a god but not to save others, to save yourself only. The gameplay was not copy of DMC, it was slower but it was still good and different. The environment, enemies were all very well done so it is praised alot. On the other hand, DMC had only great gameplay, its story was "a good devil closed the gates of demon world but now its open, the son of that good evil should close this gate now" = terrible but still it had great atmosphere in it and won most of people's heart. In DMC3, they made it better in storywise even they lost some atmosphere but still same old stuff in the core. I prefer DMC3 over GoW because of its gameplay but I admit GoW is better in overall. What is so hard to accept the facts ? This is stupid question I admit because the majority here includes kids.

When they ask GoW or DMC, you should just answer your favorite you dont need to show your fanboyism. For example FFXII vs FFX topics, some people say FFXII is confusing etc etc. thats to you, I find it pretty simple and easy because it is. Just say "I prefer FFX" dont give illogical reasons to make the other game look bad. Your capability is your own problem, not the game's nor the makers nor us. For example, moohmaytah says he didnt like FFXII much because of not enough character development. Thats true, but the reason is to point out the story over characters. I liked it and moohmaytah didnt, so instead of saying " FFXII has no character development so it has nothing, 0, crap etc" moohmaytah stated the reason why he didnt like FFXII but accepting other things while showing his taste. So he expects more detail in characters. You may say, so the other person expects simpler story whats wrong with that ? That would ruin the story by changing it. Do you think a book for "dummies" and for "normal" people would be the same ?

I'm writing these but the majority doesnt even read it, so no problem with attacking the defenseless ? Thats not true, thats showing facts about people in the forums. But meh, who am i ? The Judge Dredd of gamespot ? so again, it will be who cares...

Anyway...

I wont be here for 6 months or if I die, for ever. I'm not someone that makes easily friends, I dont track people unless they track me so maybe i should thank some people here. I thank here ;

kmertol, he is my real life friend here

AhuDJin for supporting me like always

kngdmhrts2 and seventies001, my first trackers, though I noticed that so late, thanks anyway

moohmaytah, first friend in gamespot even i was registered since 2003 lol

bartman999, raju111, TheLegendKnight, well thanks for adding me

ibiza563, thanks for your helps and nice blog activities

sohail1234, shatilov, umeer111, iboo01, thank you guys

thanks gamespot for giving us a huge space and letting us what we want to do ( I uploaded 500+ MB video here )

well, its not emotional thing or anything, just in case i should thank you people before I die, I think

Personally i like AMVs. But there may be people who ask what is AMV, so lets answer this question first.

AMV refers to Anime Music Video, which is done by people who are fans of animes. They make these videos by using anime clips and adding music to these videos. Its like music clips you know but with anime visuals instead. AMVs are not official clips, they are only fan-made entertainment videos. You can find many AMVs on the net.

If you like anime and music, i think you may like AMVs too. When people started to make AMVs, it was simply merging anime with music but now it became an Art. People now carefully synchronize everything, right moments of anime are chosen according to music's ups and downs, anime character lip synchronizations are done according to song lyrics, extra effects are added to make them different. Now it became a serious art of work.

Thanks to Gamespot user spaces, now I want to share some AMVs with people here. Everyone can find any AMV on the net, but since we have a community here, why not to share ? I have many AMVs, I burnt cds to keep them, but now I'll upload few of them here. Some of them are old, some of them are new, some of them are called one of the best AMVs, some of them are only for fun. So I don't say I'll upload the best AMVs, I'll upload AMVs to share them so people can enjoy, have fun with them.

So...Have Fun

----- do i need to remind you, i dont know but, whatever i write is my opinion.-----

 

well, i'm kinda annoyed with same topics in ps2 forums. every week someone makes same topics, every week there are these 5 topics like "its a must";

"which Final Fantasy game is the best? "

"what is the best game?"

"what is the worst game?"

"which games are underrated?"

"which games are overrated?"

it seems gamespot admins,mods allow these so i have no right to object, but its still annoying.

i dont post in worst games, overrated games topics, i dont like negative comments for games,there are still people like those games, except Splinter Cell. there is nothing frustrates me like this game when its said great. i wish i had a camera and made a video while playing that game so i would not say same things again and again. so i'll write what i want to say here. i still dont like to say bad things about games so i'll comment on only few games. if it would be about finding bad things about the games, i would find all your favorite games' all negative points and would show it like a trash, but what will i gain with it ? nothing. i want to play games to have fun, to enter new adventures like they are real. i want to enjoy thats all...

first of all, Splinter Cell has no good story, never had. it has the most cliche story and its not even appealing. for me, the most important thing for a game is the story, but if it has a great gameplay i can still accept that game as a great. i still got all of them though because there are not so many games in this genre. i beat 3 games and will beat double agent too, because you can say i'm a game addict, i come home from work and start playing games, mostly ( so i'm like, i have only weekends free : P )

people say its the best stealth game and with that statement, i think that person never played any game other than SC. in SC, there is a stealth meter and whatever it says is true. you can be under lights but if it says dark, its dark and no guard can see you. the game had like only 4-5 dark places, other than those almost all places like walking in daylight, but still in some part game says its dark and it becomes dark, the most idiotic thing in a stealth game. also additional to blind guards, they were deaf too. in some parts of the game, you were jumping and no guard was able to hear you and they didnt have an excuse for this, like they had stealth meter for light. guards were deaf, thats all. like all ubisoft games SC was buggy too, though less than other ubisoft games, but if a metal door sounds like wooden door, i cant say this a bug. so they dont even test their games. i dont want to talk about stiff controllers, if you play it like 2 hours you can get used to it, unlike all other games that makes you comfortable in 15 minutes, still it has good gameplay so i played and beat them.

Splinter Cell was totally disappointing for me at first but i got used to it and accept it as one of the worst titles. but again, honestly not because of these things, its because it has no appealing story and characters. if you rate the game by playing only its beginning ofcourse you can give it a high score...

Splinter Cell and Halo are your average cliche games. i think i said enough comments about SC, so if we talk about Halo. its another cliche story game with average gameplay. watch your old movies, alien, predator etc. play some good fps games on pc and you'll understand how it is. also a character looks like power rangers cant be cool, if you think he is cool, what can i say ? i dont want to comment on Halo much, there was not good games on xbox and halo became savior but on pc, its just average.

nevermind those 2 games, the real game i want to say overrated game is Suikoden 3. i didnt give the lowest score for it but its the worst rpg game i've played. no game made me disappointed like Suikoden 3, it was really huge disappointment. i liked the first suikoden and when i saw it had 9.1 from GS, i had high hopes for it, but what did i find ? the worst rpg game. even Grandia 3 had very cliche story, it had one of the best battle systems for a rpg, some nice characters and great 3d anime visuals, so i can say its good game. but Suikoden 3...so what is the reason to say that ? lets see;

first of all, i like animes and the intro was amazing. it really was so good, i started to think " wow this game will be good ". so the game started, firstly it wants you to enter your Fire Champion's name, then a screen comes and lets you choose one of three main characters, Hugo, Chris, Geddoe, to start to see their journeys. i started with Hugo and with Hugo's intro, i started to believe its a good game. before i started to play it returned to character choosing screen again, but Hugo had now "chapter 1" text on him. this is called Trinity Sight system, lets you see the events from different people's views, you play one chapter with one character and return to character screen ( until you choos Fire Champion ) so i chose Geddoe this time, it was shorter than Hugo's and returned to character screen again. so before starting chapters i chose Chris too. it started with Chris and Zexen Knights' entrance to town, it was nice video until, i had the control over Chris. all characters were looking nice but when i started playing, i started to be annoyed, because your characters move like robots. especially Chris, in her armor, moves exactly like robot. even 3po was moving better in Star Wars. i really couldnt believe a ps2 game in 2002 ( look at other games in 2002 or even 2001 releases ) can have so bad character animations like this. its definitely the worst, there is not a comparison for this game. while all characters look cute, they move like robots and in videos they have that spastic head move so often which is really annoying. that can be cute for characters like Cecile, may be, but its really dumb if you ask me. i'm a big anime fan and i've never been annoyed this much. if you can overcome these, you'll see cute designed characters and might even enjoy.

secondly and the biggest problem is the gameplay. you cant control your characters with analog stick, they stop moving in some areas and you go mad after trying and trying to move them, especially in Zexen forest. so you return to use d-pad like early ps1 games. so we got used to d-pad again, it was not big deal, lets continue with Battle System. there is no tutorial in this game, i'm really surprised when i didnt see any because game starts fast, with hard battles. battle system of Suikoden was controlling 6 characters differently but now they made a huge mistake by grouping those 6 characters 2 by 2. so you have 3 groups, total 6 characters max. is this a problem ? yes it is very big problem because you give 1 order to 2 people which kills everything in battle system. does it add strategy ? definitely not, because when you want to use a healing item you waste 2 people 1 of them attacks 1 of them heals, so you attack every time because of this meaningless system. when you want to use magic, 1 character use magic other one attacks. also instead of having mana you have 6,9 rights to use magic wtihout resting in a inn. for a magic fan like me, its another terrible thing, but more than that, they are mostly useless, useful ones are 1 time use only. also there is positioning problem but you dont understand that fact until you encounter 2 rows enemies and choose the enemy behind. your character sometimes walks around the whole area but still cant attack the enemy you want. another thing that is done so bad

i said you have hard battles at the beginning, but if you get 1 level for your all party members everything changes and the game becomes so easy. the game is really unbalanced, you cant start the game without leveling up, because you die quickly. but when you get 1 level, while getting 1 level you get skill points and use them, everything becomes piece of cake. there are some boss fights and when you use your best magic and 2 combos, you win. so boss fights take less than 3 minutes. all you have to do, get 1 level for all members in the party and spend your skills points on right skills.

in battles, your character animations are bad too, still moving like robots, there is no appealing magic casts, and mostly magics are useless. so the game becomes really pain because in a rpg game you fight more than any action game, a rpg takes more hours than any action game, though suikoden 3 is not so big. also there is terrible camera problem. sometimes you cant even see yourself.

the game has trinity sight system that allows you to see the events from different people's views and explain the story better. its nice, but the story is not something so great. if you play like me, 1 chapter with 1 character until a chapter is finished with all characters, you'll see everything in chapter 1. its about war and some conspiracies also classic Suikoden part (if you have suikoden 2 save on memory card, you can see additional videos ). but its all clear at the beginning. personally i got it after only playing hugo part, but when i played geddoe chapter 1 lastly ( i played chapter 1 with hugo, chris, geddoe order ), it completed everything, i'm not surprised.

Suikoden 3 started with amazing intro and i was fascinated, but it didnt continue too long and now i can easily say Suikoden 3 is the worst rpg i've ever played.

lastly i want to touch Dragon Quest VIII. its great game, i've beaten it 2 times (second one is not from start) to see the second ending. but its not something so great. its old school, it is really great to play a game like old times, but its too much old school. the story is so simple, random encounters are too often ( i bet even FF1 didnt have battles this often, i dont remember now though ), some musics are so annoying like it can kill all great musics with 1 touch and it becomes boring so fast. it has nice characters, yangus is always fun to watch, nice animations especially enemy animations in battles, it has really relaxing environment, nice visuals and musics mostly, but broken. boss battles are testing your endurance, you have limited items, though i didnt use any until the last boss. they are not hard, i didnt try to beat a boss more than 3 times ( last boss is at 3rd and jessica was in second try ( i dont count dhoulmagus because he transforms )) but annoying and boring. magics are useless and they are not good looking. especially after playing Grandia 3, which has one of the best battle systems, Dragon Quest VIII's moves were so dull.

i definitely dont put Dragon Quest in bad game category, not even in good game category, its great game, the point i want to say is, its not excellent or greatest like everyone hypes.

 

lastly again, seeing same topics again and again is kinda annoying. are you enjoying when you see same topics next week again ? it seems so

( if i made any mistakes in my text, grammar or spelling, i'm sorry, please warn me about it )