
Last night I decided to leave GS.
There is nothing worse that can happen to an Agoraphobe than for her
to find the words
to speak
and then
have those words taken away. :evil:
Because speaking again after being muted is near impossible.
I have been unable to speak in HAL0 since given my
2nd moderation in 2 days
and EVER for ( OMFG ) trolling. :|
I'm nearing 2 years here and it took me prolly 16 months to find
my voice here at all. :o
Now within 2 days I've been moderated for defending myself and
my union from a
jealous egotistical person who is upset because I have Top 100's in my union
that I named HAL0 for
High-scores And Leaderboards Organization
Yeah, apparently I'm not supposed to have Top GS whatever in
my Top 100 :|
I should let someone else who THINKS he knows what he is doing
@ a Union that has
NOTHING to do with Leaderboards do it instead, not ALSO,
but INSTEAD. :|
It's also been argued I should change my union name. :twisted:
I say I can name it anything I want !
Does The Emblem Union produce GS's Emblems ? No
They talk about emblems....
It should be called The We Talk About The Emblems Union :|
Does Viennsories Cafe have real food, hunh ? NO
It should be called Viennsories Non-Cafe then. :|
( See accusations 2 blogs back if U need to understand this )
My response.....If U change Urs, I'll change mine. ;)
I can go on and on....but I think I made my point.
Back to my leaving GS
This person has followed me around with his friend (s)
making me feel attacked & helpless to do anything
because when I reply...it is deleted and moderated.
Admittedly the first issue, because of 1 line...was my own fault.
Here is the Ask The Mods Topic where it is discussed
and where I am given leave to reprint in full minus a few small edits.
But I find myself unable to speak there now.
I can't. I can't. I can't do it. :cry:
I was going to, I made a couple topics in response to demands
but I had a migraine and went to bed.
When I came back I was moderated again for a comment
I made directly before
the one that was moderated 20 or so hours before.
I'm told it could have been seen as trolling. I disagree.
It was self-defense.
This person also has been making comments behind me with one of his alts...
example
and other things I can't quite prove yet so I won't add them here.
My voice is gone, I cannot speak there.
I can't even speak at my other union.
I have no desire to be where I'm muted in my own "home"
I don't want to even be on GS at all. I feel driven away by a selfish child.
I have been here every single day for 8 to 20 hours a day for over a year.
I'm sure there are records....check em.
I have WORKED to make GS a better place.
A safer, funner, more inviting, interesting, caring place. A home.
I feel driven from my home. Yet, I have no where else to go. Just my 360's blog, maybe.
I decide to leave GS
But last night, along with arguments from friends... this happened
A true short story for U....
Last night I was awakened by this awful screeching kind of blowhorn-like sound. :|
I thought the pack of wild dogs that roam my area had gotten one of my kittys :evil:
So I streaked outside to save my baby ! Barefoot and practically bare-assed. :shock: Well I was in a friggin hurry! :oops: I was gonna rip em apart with my bare hands ! :twisted:
What I found was this teeny tiny kitten...one eye still partly glued shut. He was screamin bloody murder cuz he couldnt find his mommy. :cry: He'd run up to my cats, who all accompanied me on my investigation, and all but Belly would hiss at him and take a swipe. Belly prolly wanted to eat him :| :roll:
Anyways, I finally chased the lil screamin bugger down in my undies and across all kinds of thorns and ouchies. :) Caught him and got him inside and now if I move from his sight he screams more bloody murder :P
Ok, no point too this story except that it reminded me how good it feels to rescue something or someone. And how awful I feel that I can't rescue so many other people here on GS. I can't even rescue myself apparently. But I AM going to keep trying.
Yesterday I was so upset I decided to leave GS. Today I decided to just take a break for a lil while.
Can't say for how long. I don't know.
I'll be back :D
Bet on it.
I'll
NEVER QUIT, ONLY PAUSE. :)
I'm making Tyler leader of HAL0
Please help him as much as possible.
BooBS will survive without me for a lil while, everyone loves BooBS. :)
note - All linkys not here yet. I'll add them shortly.
Can't say when I'll be back.... But I WILL Be Back
My thoughts on the mods....Most are wonderful selfless hard-working
caring human beings. I'm not trashing the mods.
I respect and trust them while at
the same time I would never consider having such an awful
stressful job.
Linky to my 360's blog ~ I'll post there every day.
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