Hey guys... I'd really appreciate your thoughts and prayers this weekend, not for me, but for some people very very dear to my heart. A friend of mine tried to kill himself Wednesday in his room by drinking Nyquil and bleach. Apparently something in the Nyquil made him start throwing up, and the paramedics got to him in time, so he's going to be okay, at least physically. But he's really close to some of my close friends. No one really saw it coming. He was always a really happy kind of guy, one that seemingly had a close relationship with the Lord.

He's on his way home now to be with his parents, and it's looking like he will probably be gone for the rest of the semester to get some real help. It's hit everyone pretty hard. One of my best friends really cares about him, and she's devastated that he would attempt something like this. I'm worried about her, that maybe she would start blaming herself, when he's really the one at fault.

There are a lot of different emotions that I'm feeling right now. I'm confused, because someone that has Jesus in their heart is supposed to have the hope that trials and sufferings don't last forever. I'm furious at him, wondering how he could be so incredibly selfish to think that taking his own life would make everything easier for everyone. I'm sad, that he thought that he was all alone. I'm frustrated, that I can't be down there with my friends to physically comfort them. This is the first person I know that has tried to kill themselves, and I don't really know how to handle it or how to help other people handle it.

I know that this situation has caused a lot of people I know to think about they way that they live their lives. I was talking about this with a friend up here, and we both came to the conclusion that this made us realize that we need to be open with each other, that we can't keep everything inside, because it just eats away at us. It's caused another friend to realize that even in suffering we can find joy in the Lord, and through this joy found in Christ we can help others who are suffering. It's helped me realize that nothing in this world is hopeless, as long as I have my faith.

Please be in prayer for him and his family and friends. He has a long road ahead of him, and his family is probably going through the same emotions that we all are. Thanks guys.

Chris