Well the 4th of july was a total waste of a day for me! I didn't do anything! I hated that day with a passion! That was always my favorite holliday but now its a day I wish didn't happen! I didn't get to be with my boyfriend, I didn't get to do anything! Well I did see a total of like 3 small fireworks that was it! Nowour Anniversary is today and I can't even talk to him to tell him happy anniversary! All I ever wanna do is spend time with him and I have made that clear to everyone! I am not going on my family vacation to Cedar point in August just because I don't wanna be any farther away from Ben then I already am! I miss him so much! The day we first started going out was so great to me and I was so happy I can remember but today I am even happier then I was that day! I have gotten to know Ben more then anyone! I have found so many more great things in him that in that time of my life I never knew was there! We have changed eachother over our time together into people we never thought we could possible become! My life with Ben is really an adventure in its own making! I stop to see what I have in him and I wounder "what else do I need I already have everything I want in him" He is perfect! Well I think I will stop with the sappiness I don't want you all to get to sick of me too soon! Well I love you Ben and I hope you read that! I am gonna marrie you! Like you stated clearly! ^^ Happy anniversary Ben! PEACE OUT!