Well yesterday was fun! I went to Samuel's B-day party and got to hand out! I made him a card that was goofy! It had a picture of him with a crown on and a pigeion on his shoulder! His nick name is pigeon king so thats what made me decide to make that card! lol! Lots of people were there! We sat in his basement and played soul calibar 2 and DBZ legends! It was fun! Oh and best of all Ben was there! We sat with eachother on the couch and I was so happy! We got to talk and everything! He was poking me and trying to tickle me, which I don't know why but it made me really happy! Then he was holding my hand and kept kissing my sholder! I swear when that all happened I almost started crying I had missed him so much! but instead I tryed to cover it up by pinching his nipples or hitting him with a pillow! I don't know why I do that when I am scared but I have the tendency to beat Ben up! lol! I love him so much though! When ever he would sit and look at me I felt like melting! His smile was seriously making me wanna cry! I can go through all of this crap and just the slight sight of his face gives me this feeling in my stomic, my body starts to tingle and my chest starts to hurt! I always wanna just cry in his arms but I am acctually doing pretty good at not crying latley! Thats a BIG thing for me because I'm a big cry baby! lol! Just feeling his touch ment so much to me!He gives me that feeling that no one in the world matters except us, when he looks at me! He looked at me and pointed at his cheek and gave me his cocky little smile and just kept pointing at his cheek! God I would have made out with him if it was somone elses party but I was to scared some one might tell of get Ben in more trouble! But he didn't care so I just gave him a little kiss! lol! When he told me he loved me it had been so long since I heatd him say that, that is tore through me! I kept telling I loved him the whole night! I missed telling him that! It felt good to be able to do that! I left at 10pm because my ride was late! But then I got home and wanted to dance around the living room! I LOVE BEN! Well I guess that is it I will just go sit and think about my baby boy instead of bothering you with it! PEACE OUT AND ROACK ON FOREVER!