First aired: 6/10/2006
Production code: 100

        I like to write long sentences, but I find that excusable. What I'm really capable of in scaring people away, is my strange ability to do that not by saying rude stuff, but by writing extremely long essays, which include reviews and forum posts. I'm also known for playing safe. However, I'm actually taking risks by writing this blog, since no one might actually read it. Anyway, life goes on.

        If you'd read my previous post (I admit, not very skilfully written, but I did put a lot of effort into it), most of the stuff I wrote about myself are true. I'm currently a student in Moscow, and this is the last week of my second-year course. However, I need to correct something, I'm not actually 19, and I don't know how I wrote it. I'm 20 years, 2 months, and 8 days old. Well, let's just assume that there're 30 days in a month, and I'm born at exact midnight.

        Well, there isn't much to talk about. Most of the things that circle around me I'd have told in my first blog. My family is a wreck right now, and when I go back this summer I must seriously spend some time to sort things out. My elder brother's behaving like a 15-year old kid, which makes him the same age as my sister. Don't get me wrong, I love them dearly. It's just that now it's a very dark period in my house. I guess sometimes it can just hit you in between your eyes: we'd grown. Into another form that screams and yearns to be freed from everything. Responsibilities, bonding, but the truth is, we are burdened with more of them as we get older, and that's what make us stronger. (Clear throat) Sorry, I'm very dramatic. That was pure Billy's talking.

        I guess I never talked about my interests. Well, I'm not in the mood to touch that area, since there're too many and they keep changing too. Lately, I have this strong passion and discipline to come to this site and write some stuff. It's fun, and in a way, it gives me guilty pleasure. You can write anything and no one will ever know the original writer. I guess that is the moment when we'll realize that we are rules-fearing, responsible members of tv.com. (Three cheers for not abusing our rights as civic-minded writers... wooo...)

        Now let's talk about tv. I like to think myself as the voter-of-academy-award-or-similar-award kind: I have an 'unexplainable' affinity towards soapy, depressing and artistic shows. My friends think of me as an old-stiff politician/ uncle who takes everything too seriously. Just because I value brilliant writing, excellent casting and skilful acting. So, that is the reason of my top-four tv shows: Six Feet Under, Desperate Housewives, Prison Break, and soon-to-be Lost. I haven't even finished watching the first season of Lost, but I think I'll like it. Sometimes the lack of resources can be a lit-tle irritating.

        When I'm watching tv, I want to be amazed rather than amused. And I want to see something I'm familiar with. The most important of all - I must be able to relate myself to the characters. I'll leak everything out. I'm much like David in Six Feet Under. I'm sensitive, but refuse to show that quality, especially with my family. I need to be strong for my mother, because I know that I'm the only one she can depend on right now. Well, no wonder that I turned into this fun-hating uncle. I'm only 20 for God's sake. Okay, Billy, pull yourself together. The role of drama queen has already been filled by Teri Hatcher.

        Now - Desperate Housewives. Actually I'm the balance between Susan, Lynette and Bree. I tend to beat around the bushes very often. Okay, almost my entire life. I guess life without drama isn't life at all. That was Susan. I used to be like Lynette - fearless when I think I'm right, and when I'm defending someone. I'd like to be a fighter for women's rights after I'm officially a doctor. As for Bree, I understand her totally. Sometimes you cannot let other people think of you as the way they like, and you can't let them judge you because they are not better than you. Slowly, you just like to play with their minds, saying things you don't mean or behaving in a perfect way to make others look up to you. Like evilgenius, I have trust issues. Thank God I'm not Gabrielle - I like kids, and I want to have at least 7. ... What?! I'm actually not joking.

        Prison Break - well, I cannot really relate myself to that. First, I don't know whether I love my brother that much (kidding). Next, I don't know whether my brother's capable of holding a gun (kidding again - he punched and slammed me onto the floor when we were kids - this guy does have anger issues. Oh, and the slapping too). Last, I hope I'm as smart as Michael. I don't think I can cover the whole map on my body, I'm small in size, so my total body surface isn't that big.

        Lost, metaphorically, I am living on an island. No one really understands me, not even myself. I guess I can relate myself to Jack, if I'm more than 6 feet tall, have that face that girls and gay guys crave for. I do hope that I can be such heroic and selfless doctor. That is something that all doctors should at least try to do. Luckily, I'm born a softie and cry every time I watch Six Feet Under or Desperate Housewives (that only makes you a sissy, Billy, not kind), so in a way, I might be as kind as he is. To evilgenius: that's why I want to be an elder brother. Not to bully, but to help. I tend to get very protective.

        That's it. I'm single, but am also seeing someone on daily-basis, non-exclusively (as in Justin and Brian in Queer as Folk) over the net for the past year. Yeah, I'm freaking close to this bjs544, maybe now I can relate myself to Gabrielle (Xiao Mei: You are like my mother. Gabrielle: Uh-huh. Since we are so freaking close...) Well, to all Susan haters, you find yourselves a new target. Those who wanted to eliminate her, guess what, Billy is moving to Wisteria Lane next season, only this time, the new drama queen takes it to a whole new level.

        That's me. I believe in love. I care about others. I care about what others think. If they are judging me I want to know why. Because if they don't like me, they might be hurt by my current acts. I believe in the power of love. I believe in unconditional love. I believe that love brings people together and do things they could never have dreamt of. Because ultimately, life is nothing, if there isn't love to keep it going. Well, thanks to Celine Dion. She makes me believe that.