Thursday, September 25, 2008
I finally met the orphans face-to-face. To be honest, I was relieved that none of them were spoiled, bratty, or ugly.

There are 3 guys and 2 girls: 원영 (2월 4일), 정남 (12월 31일), and 제윤 (10월 2 일); 정혜 (6월 13일), and 순라. All of us are born in 1991.

On that very night, 원영, 정남, and 제윤 simply talked about Korea, the U.S., life, and new words from around 10 PM - 3 AM. They were very interesting people to talk to. I got very friendly with them from that night on.

Friday, September 26, 2008
I accidentally got close with 정혜. I meant to involve everyone in random activities together, but I ended up in Jenna's room hanging out with the girls. 원영 eventually joined us as well. Anyway, it was on that night that I started to like 정혜 - a feeling that I know I shouldn't have and a feeling that I know would not be returned... Nonetheless, we all ended up being even more friendly and comfortable around each other.

However, our relationships, in my opinion, started to go downhill throughout the rest of the week up to today. On Monday, the guys went to Canada to visit the Niagara Falls and stayed there for 2 nights. On Wednesday, they went to Washington DC and came back at 12 AM on Thursday.

I have been spending less and less time with them. However in a strange way, I feel that this is some sort of a blessing. I'm viewing 원영 as a best friend. He comes up immediately to my room to tell me about his day and ask me how I've been doing. We engage in more conversations than with the others, and he's been buying me souvenirs from the places he has visited. I really appreciate the things he has done, but I have never really shown my true appreciation... I should seriously spend more time with one of my very few friends. 정혜 has been getting me souvenirs as well, but she only approaches me to charge her digital camera. 원영, on the other hand, actually wants to talk and build our friendship. God has truly blessed my life with a really great friend. I hope we can carry our friendships in the future and keep in touch. But then again, that's how me and my cousins felt - look at our relationships now...

I also view this experience and the friendships as sort of a "curse". Once they leave for Korea on Thursday, October 9, what will I become? A great addition to my life will now be taken away from me. All that will be left are memories and mere photos and objects to remember them by. Will our friendships end up in the same fate that I had with my cousins?

I don't know what to do...