Nowadays, I am regretting how I spent 4 years of my high school life. I am a typical shy guy who is afraid to talk to people. Well I guess I am not afraid but it's more like the lack of self-confident. When I first entered the high school, I was really excited even though I didn't know anyone in the school. I was planning to participate in school activities and meet new friends. During first year, I tried out for the basketball and soccer team but I didn't make both teams. My social life wasn't better either. I only talked to people who were just like me and I didn't talk to anybody other than them. 4 years later in the present, I am still a shy, not involved in any major sports teams, don't have many friends and sitting here writing a blog about my "pathetic" life. I guess what I'm trying to say is that the first impression is very important and if you make a wrong first impression, then your life can be a harsh one.

Let me just tell you what happened today. I went into my first class, I didn't talk to anyone. During lunch time, I had a lunch with my friends who only like to talk about F***ing video games!!! AND in my thrid and fourth classes, I was sitting by myself punishing myself! I Am a F***ing Loner and I am going to F***ing DIE!!!! Why did I only say "HI" to them when they wanted to get to know me! Why didn't I try to be friends with one of those well rounded people! Why do I F***ing have to be friends with these GEEKS who only like to talk about FREAKING VIDEO GAMES!!!! F***!!!

Well....... Welcome to My Life.