Ahh well it's like 3 days later, and for the last few the withdrawals have been a MOFO! Oh well, I'm feelin better now. So no rehab,Makin a decision to go forward w/ my life no matter what. It's not likeI'm a stranger on how this stuff works. As I said, Iv'e been trying to get clean for about a yr. Just sick of the same old bullsh!t that only gets worse everytime.Been thinkin, and realized what's important in my life. It's not my Car, My 360, my Dirtbike, or the kind of clothes I have or whatever. I mean that kind of stuff is all great to have, but it doesnt make ME happy. I can't speak for anyone else. The things that are most important to me are the Family, and friends I have. Building relationships w/ other people. Ha I laugh when I write this, cuz it's comin from someone w/ gang connections w/ Gangster Diciple's in Chicago, and just a drugee who doesn't play well with others..... But hell, I am what I am. On another note, things ARE gettin better.
Met a 26 yr. old, and hit it off w/ her. Shes got good things going on in her life, and IS single. She seemsreal down to earth, and has a good head on her shoulders.I'm gonna see if she wants to go out next Friday. She's got her own Apt.about 5 mi.from where i'm at,and no kids. So it's lookin good.i'm pretty busy this weekend: got family stuff to do.Man this girl is just beautiful, and 6 yrs. older than me. I can't believe that things look pretty promising. I mean, I'm not a bad lookin guy (not tryin to be conceited or anything), but damn. The age is just a shocker. I've never dated any girl thats been more than 2 yrs. older than me. The funniest part is: thatshe gave me a haircutin the salon uptown. LOL. I get a haircut once a yearBTW! I guess it wasjust my lucky day.I'm 99% positive I'll get a date w/ her. Just met her the other day, so im gonna wait a little bit to call her. Can't believe a 26 yr. old would consider a 20 yr. old, but hey, IM ALL FOR IT!! ( I only look about 18,19, so she says.)
Haven't been playin any games at all. Due to all thesh!t that's been goin on. Just tryin to stay busy. When I got more time, I wanna play Ninja Gaiden. Other than that, nothin else really goin on. Tryin to see what I have to do to get into college. I wanna go to some tech. school, but still undecided. So Im honestly gonna look, and make some kind of decision. So I can get out of my grandparents basement. It's like an Apt. here, but im ready for somethin else eventually.
Well Thanks for reading guys, and hope to get to your blogs soon.