7A's, 6B's

and im happy :)

and im a goombella

i think the important thing here is what the hell is a goombella!

ive finished my GCSE's and now i dont have to worry about school till september,

well its another chapter in my life that is over,

and when 1 chapter ends, another begins

well, ive had alot to deal with over the past few years, mainly with several deaths, but ive decided to dwell on the positive,

this is my last year in my school till i move on to college, i have virtually no more relatives to die :P so im gonna start to look on the good side of life

New Year, New Start

New Years Resolution

Look on the bright side of life and quit swearing as much :P

well, at 12:20am today my grandad died, within the space of 4-5 days he went from ok to dying, i couldnt get there in time for him at the hospital, at least he is at peace now

well, it seems in all my blogs its nothing but bad luck, well this isnt going to change

1 minute ago, my grandad, who just left the hospital yesterday, was rushed in again with problems breathing, heart problems and god knows what else, i would go but i cant let myself see what he looks like now as i havent seen him since the Alzheimers started as i dont want to ruin that image of my grandad so my mum is going instead

i really think this is the end,

well, if any of you have read my previous blog posts you should know my dad died 1 year ago, i have found it incredibly tough and frankly ive never felt so low but all my friends in my local area and all my friends on gamespot, Khat, Canana, Scja, 5-0 and crni, u have all helped me,

But now its got to a new stage, in the past week ive had to live through the 1 year on feeling, ive had my entire school talk about who i fancy and just 1 minute ago i got told my grandad who suffers from Alzheimer's is badly ill and may not last longer, in fact its got to the stage where they might "ring us during the night" which lets face it is code for it can only get worse.

isnt it funny how life goes by, 1 second you live, the next you die...

and im still greiving over my dad, it will never be right

this is what i wrote for the funeral, it gives me comfort

 

We love you

 

Because

To say how much we love you

Would take forever more

For there's simply no one else

Who we ever could adore!

We somehow blend together

In such a perfect way

And we hold you in our hearts

Throughout each and every day.

You bring a meaning to our life

We thought impossible to know

And there are a million reasons

Why we'll always love you so

Sometimes we think we're dreaming

Because we cant believe it's true

That all we'd ever hoped for

Came about when we had you

You filled our every day with joy-

You're our inspiration too

And there are no happier times

Than those we shared with you

 

i really dont know why i bother with these, i know nobody actually reads them but i guess they help me. todaywe are selling my dads car and it is really tough to let go, especially becuase it is to a friend so i will probably see it everyday

well, yesterday i scattered my dads ashes off of cats bells, his favourite mountain, me and 9 other people tried to get to the top but had to  stop half way lol
it is no doubt hard for me as i still miss my dad so much, but it reassures me to know he is where he wants to be now