well, if any of you have read my previous blog posts you should know my dad died 1 year ago, i have found it incredibly tough and frankly ive never felt so low but all my friends in my local area and all my friends on gamespot, Khat, Canana, Scja, 5-0 and crni, u have all helped me,

But now its got to a new stage, in the past week ive had to live through the 1 year on feeling, ive had my entire school talk about who i fancy and just 1 minute ago i got told my grandad who suffers from Alzheimer's is badly ill and may not last longer, in fact its got to the stage where they might "ring us during the night" which lets face it is code for it can only get worse.

isnt it funny how life goes by, 1 second you live, the next you die...