A man that struggles with bare sanity,

Obscene gestures and mouth full of profanity,

Disturbed with it all and left mentally checked,

Refuses to walk away from a fight when there is a lack of respect,

Only thinking of himself wanting to break his opponents neck,

BLIND, FLASH, BOOM!

Doesnt remember what happens and wakes up in a cement room,

Rushes of cold, lonliness and regret,

Losing his freedoms all because he didnt know how to act while being upset,

Judge shows no sympathy and reads off a sentence of more then thirty years,

The man looks back only to see his wife and kids broken down shedding a flow of tears,

Rushes to give a hug but quickly restrained,

A man lost everything cause he lost his temper again.....

That was a poem I just wrote right here right now off of the top of my head. Hope you understand it. In other news I recently bought several games including getting yet another platinum trophy for WWE Legends of Wrestlemania. My health continues to gradually go south but I am fighting as much as possible. I recently have been going through a lot mentally. To be quite honest, I was watching the news and saw that the amazing President Obama was pulling the troops out of Iraq. However, I felt horrible when I then learned that he is sending them to Afganistan. A part of me felt as if though I need to go and belong over there. Yet, Thats just not possible. There are many things that I have to consider. First and foremost my wife and kids. Then my health wouldnt allow me to do much, I wouldnt be able to lead the front line anymore. Thats what is eating me up inside. My wife says that I have done my part and I am already with my injuries going to be suffering in pain for the remainder of my life. It just makes me feel bad as if though I am not doing what im suppose to. Ya, I have done more then my fair share in War, actual war not just sitting on my ass, but it just feels strange that there is a fight that I can't take part in.

I have been a fighter all my life. From the streets, to my violent upbringing and childhood. To the boxing ring and inside the Cage of the Octogan. Its just hard to swallow that there is a fight that I am not a part of and yet feel obligated to do something but simply cant. Obama is doing his best but the other nations are giving hardly anything to aid in this everlasting war on terror. It really pisses me off to end. The world always looks to America to lead and solve everyones problems, but the minute that they are asked to step up and help, they all would rather turn tail and run like the french.

Showtime and rockstar has sponsored a new cage fighting organization called strikeforce. Tonight was the debut with over 15 thousand people selling out the arena. It feautures Fighters that span from UFC, Wec, Elite XC and Pride. All the fighters that left the organizations and were payed much more to come here.

In attendance was The Huntington Beach Bad Boy Tito Ortiz. With Jimmy Lennon Jr, is the main announcer and spokesman for the new organization. Every fight was absolutely brutal and legendary potential. The main event feautured a veterand of ufc and a legend of all of MMA.

Frank Shamrock.... NO NOT THE BUM KEN SHAMROCK.! IT IS HIS HALF BROTHER WHO IS A MUCH BETTER FIGHTER AND A LEGEND IN ALL OF MARTIAL ARTS! Nick Diaz the older brother of Nate Diaz and Nick is also the one that UFC let go and did dirty so to speak.

Nick one of my fav. Fighters of all time not only beat the bonafied legend but utterly destroyed him. Nick obliterated him and the ref stopped it in Round 2. Frank was humble in defeat despite coming back after two surgeriesand being out after a year when his arm was broken and knee cap shattered in a fight with ..... cant remember name at moment..... this was in the elite xc.

Normally these other organizations are small and cheezy especially since they are popping up everywhere. This is great, the atmosphere and presentation was better then the UFC. witch utterly shocked me. I am so happy and lucky to have witnessed this momentus ocassion.

Next time on strikeforce will be saturday june 6th with jake shields vs. Legendary Robby Lawler and also Bobolu Sobral will be fighting for a middleweight title. I am so excited. Also Elite XC was thrown into the garbage. I say good riddens, and good riddens to there lame front showman, Kimbo the fake wanna be street fighter Slice.

Have you been watching the news. Some disgraceful and sick things have been happening. It seems like there is one kidnap and murder after another. This stuff is becoming more and more common. There was a little girl two weeks ago that was crossing the street to go to her friends house and just dissapeared in the blink of an eye. They found her a week later on the side of a road inside of a briefcase cut up into little pieces. HOW THE HELL CAN SOMEONE HURT A CHILD! THAT IS JUST SICK AND HORRIBLE! I personally would love to find one of these sick wierdows and show them the true meaning of torture and pain.

Anyone that would intentionally hurt a child, Kidnap, Rape etc. Has no rights in my eyes to walk this earth. The punishment should fit the crime. Everything they do should be done to them but ten times worse. Then they should be made to live paralyzed from the neck down and repeatedly punched in the face. Criminals such as petifiles and rapists make me sick to my stomach. I hate people because of the horrible things like this.

In other news there was an asian man who went inside of a Civic Center in New York State and went on a shooting spree and then killed himself. WHAT THE HELL! Even worse then that on the news last week was a father that killed his five children in cold blood and then drove to a parking lot and proceeded to kill himself. The mother came home from the grocery store to find her five children, witch they were little kids all brutally murdered and splattered. WHAT THE HELL IS THE WORLD COMING TO. WE ARE NOT SOUTHERN AFRICA! WE ARE THE UNITED STATES! This is the example and precedent that we set for the world to see. It is sickening to see all this, and the people that take there freedoms for granted.

I am still waiting until next month to install the 20 thousand dollar custom made home theater system. Also I am so excited to tellyou all the big news that I have left you suspended in suspense for over six months. It is almost time but not just yet. I have to make sure everything falls through the way its supposed to. I should be able to tell you all the BIG news next month around the first week hopefully. It is technically Easter as of right now as I write this so Happy Easter and God Bless all of you. Understand what this represents and never take it lightly or for granted.

Yesterday I finally decided to sign in and play xbox live only to discover my profile had been suspended or banned. I called Microsoft and was immediately given to management when they realized who I was. Turns out someone had reported my profile for talking about how I will hunt people down and kill them and how I hate bush and hopes he dies etc. Turns out by the time I was done with them they were apologizing for bothering me and all reports for my profile on xbox will no longer even be looked at. The reversal was made and I put whatever the hell I want inside of my Bio. I gave them hell and every other word out of my mouth was the F bomb and I was honestly pissed off very seriously. As previously stated, when they relized who I was and who they were dealing with I had them pretty much begging for my forgiveness.

Have you seen the lineup for Xbox this year. It is horrible and sad as well as extremely dissapointing. There is only one game I am looking forward to from Microsoft this year and that is Halo ODST. As for Sony, the PS3 is dominating right now. Offering over 100 exclusives this year and estimated 45 of them being released for U.S. and Europe. Simply amazing. I was a huge Xbot since 2000 and now after my PS3 since purchase over two years ago was a paper weight so to speak until this recent December. Now that they have trophies it changes everything. Did you see the sales numbers for Feb, and March. The PS3 sold 55 thousand more units then Nintendo Wii and damn near 100 thousand more units then the Xbox 360. This momentum is much needed right now and I honestly feel as if though the surge in sales is due to trophies and the fact that Developers are now recommending and prefering PS3 over any other console including PC. The Blu Ray Technology and capability of the PS3 is unparralled and they are finally discovering how to utilize this technology to an advantage. Developers during many interviews are excited and preferring PS3 saying that they hated having to limit themself on other consoles and PS3 holds limitless capability. Needless to say as of right now I am all about my PS3.

Another big thing to me is the arcade and movies. Xbox for about six months on the arcade is utterly attrocious. As of Janurary they fired the lead manager that was incharge of arcade for xbox and brought in a new hotshot. He is doing just as bad. What Happened to Microsoft? There quality of gaming has just went straight down the toilet. PS3 each and every weak is deliver quality arcade games and many exclusive games as well. The movie selection beats Microsofts completely and the movie quality is amazing. You can buy a standard movie for 9.99 or 14.99 off of PS3 Video store and it will still upconvert to a 1080 p. Picture. It also offers fast movie downloads and hundreds more in its selection over xbox. Sure now, Microsoft has Netflix right? WRONG! It only works within the inter continental U.S. witch means 50 States. So no one else can utilize it. What a shameful waste. This is a huge deal to me since I am after all a movie buff.

I talked to Netflix as of just three days ago cause I heard a rumor from my local gamestop that the problem was fixed for here in Puerto Rico. WRONG AGAIN GENIOUSES! I was furious about this and I am out ten bucks. Netflix said they would refund it but have not done so as of yet. So I am pretty pissed about that. All I know is Microsoft needs something Big at E3 this year or its over for this gen. I prefer xbox over sony ps2 all day long. However as of right now the only thing that is missing from the PS3 is Voice Chat from player to player while playing different games. Then its all over in my opinion. Microsoft needs a new console. Have you seen Killzone 2? The graphics make gears of war 2 look like an out of date game lol. Seriously, and this is still barely tapping into the potential of PS3. Also I want to comment to all the PC fanboys I hear ranting.

Game consoles are just as good and offer in some instances better graphics then the PC. Here is a good example. Graphics on Xbox 360 for Fallout three were absolutely perfect. Flawless in every sense of the word. The pc barely paled in comparison to the 360 version. Consoles have caught up with pc witch is AWSOME BABY! I cant stand gaming on PC. I use to PC a lot back in the day for FPS like Quake and Unreal when I would play in tournaments. However there is no need to anymore considering consoles are just as good and offer just as good quality.

My wife and I have been playing a lot of video games lately witch is simply great. She destroys me at wrestling games. and it just feels great. We decided to play video games every day again like we use to. We have been playing for about two to three hours a day, and my son loves to play video games with us.

I recently bought a PSP game from Gamestop that was on sale with 50% off. It was Mortal Kombat Unchained. The game is better then the PS2 version offering better, more solid gameplay and even better graphics. The PSP version also offers six more characters then the other console versions, witch is awsome when your crushing people and doing fatalities with GORO!

Midway recently filed for Bankruptcy as you know and I have been reading the comments in the news article threads and am shocked at how disrespectful some of the slime balls are here. Midway happens to be my favorite game publisher and I have been playing and supporting there games for over 20 years since they were just an arcade based company. Midway has been around for roughly three decades witch is 30 years. Thats longer then any other gaming company in history that has been able to stay intact. This all happened simply because the economy hit a rough patch and the current CEO at that time sold his stock that was estimated at over 200 million for only 3 hudred thousand dollars. This caused the companies stocks to plumet and essentially making the company worthless from being one of the top dogs in the gaming industrial world. They gave there best efforts and released some really good games and some poor ones. A recent great game they released was MK VS. DC. Anyone that says that game isnt good is just insane cause the game was amazing and probably the best MK title released. They were going to release many character packs but obviously that wont be happening now. Also the last thing they did before they had to put the company up for auction for a measly 30 million instead of 500 million was release a game pack called the Titan pack for Unreal Tournament Three for PS3 and PC giving exclusive content and all the stuff that was on xbox 360. It is awsome stuff truly.

Recently games that have dissapointed me are the fact that I bought a 50 cent game for the PS3 only to find out from my best friend that the game doesnt have any trophies. Good thing Zblood told me before I opened the damn thing. I returned it today and even though it was two weeks ago since I bought it, they gave me full store credit. Also the case was open but thats how it was sold to me since it was the last copy they had and it was a display box but brand new non the less. I was really pissed about that. I love 50 cent and couldnt wait to play the game. Now I will just buy the 360 version. I am starting to get a little bored with my PS3 and am starting to have the urge to play my xbox again finally.

WRESTLEMANIA 25 was amazing. The most entertaining spectacle in all 25 years of Wrestlemania and every match for all four hours was breathetaking and people really got hurt. Ya WWE is mostly fake but when you jump from 20 ft. in the air and land wrong.... Your Screwed lol.

So thats it for now and I will update you more. There is much I havent said simply because I dont feel comfortable talking about it. Especially in regards to my health. All I will say on that note is that I may be gone for a couple of days next week due to treatments. Anyways, God bless all of you and Happy Easter.