That's how I feel at the moment. I know I should be grateful for my present job. But I can't help it if my boss is a dumbass. Telling someone (though indirectly) that you haven't improved in two years is hardly motivational. I wanted to kick the bastard in the teeth. But I had to let it go, because he would probably be too dumb to realize why I am trouncing him if it ever happened. All because admittedly of a fault of mine, but should not have led to that stupid remark, passing off as words of wisdom.
It doesn't help either that another particular colleague is a dumbass. To give an idea, he doesn't know who Pontius Pilate is, and he's catholic. It is a stroke of miracle that I haven't clobbered the fool.
It has been nearly a month since those dumb@$$ comments were heard. And they may not fallen on deaf ears. Because nobody likes to work for a moron. And so I took it as providence that an acquaintance of mine enters the picture, who is working in the animation industry, who is a friend of a friend. And so now I fish him for information and stuff as to what is their entry-level employment opportunities are. I have good feelings for this company because my friend talks about it in high regard as to how he learned much from his stay there.
It is funny though that this was the case similarly two years and a month ago. I was nearing the end of a 3-month contractual at the company I interned for. And I was interviewed a few weeks before the end of the term. I took this job probably because it was most convenient at the time, definitely had a higher pay than the contractual job, was a stone's throw away where said contractual took place, and various others.
But of course I am taking my time, because jumping ship immediately would mean I would have to downgrade my salary in half. Which means I'll barely be able to keep up with the rent, food etc. My current option is to save a bit then jump ship once I have a sizeable buffer. However time is a luxury I do not have. I'm already a quarter of a century old, and not much to show for it. And although I want to quit doesn't mean that it's unbearable, It is quite easy for the most part actually. But it is also it's own downfall. You don't improve much with the same old thing done over and over again. But then again, it is also my own doing. Having placed myself in this position in the first place.
I could grin and bear it for the rest of my career, but then I would barely good for anything else. Because although in my current career (Web Design/Development) I am fairly competent, I'm not exactly blazing trails either.
My fervent hope meanwhile then is that either I come into a large sum of money in the immediate future (GOOD LUCK), or that I'll be able to save and rack up some sidelines to add to my buffer savings. All the while nagging the friend mentioned earlier (who I've sparred with in Tekken 5) for info on the career particulars.
At the end of the day though, it was a good wakeup call I guess. Because if to his dull eyes he cannot see improvement, then he just proved he is a dumbass. And so I guess I'll just take off to go and 'Improve' elsewhere then, where I might actually be appreciated.
Where previously it was a question of 'If', it is now merely a question of 'When.' Wish me luck.
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