Okay so my ex, of 4 years, (which we still had sex, last time was last Saturday), whom I am still in love with, told me he wants to ask out this ugly girl he met online who lives 3 hours away, and he fingered her last Sunday and she gave him a HJ, but they didn't finish. She didn't know we had sex the day prior to this. So he breaks my heart yet again. He said he sees her on the 6th of November next, she is sleeping over and he plans on asking her out. I want to kill myself. I can never let a guy in because I am afraid they are all going to break my heart like he did...like 10 times. I hate life so much. I hate love. It hurts me more than anything.

I hate men. I am so done. I always get left with nothing.

And to top it off, I got a concussion last night. I was at a halloween park and a guy in a haunted house in a metal cage decided to bang on the cage with all his body weight, it was either a door that opened or the bar broke and it bashed me off the head. Work sent me home because I couldn't function today, so I missed out on a days worth of time and a half pay..

Today, is easily the worst day of my life to date.