So my mom drove me over to Anna's house, and there were people playing in her garage (she has a ping-pong table in there), and all of a sudden I became really panicky, and I told my mom to take me home.

So she took me home, and here I am now...

Crying my eyes out because my mom kept asking me why I was full of self-doubt :cry:

My mom called my dad on his cell phone, I like to talk to my dad more than my mom, and he talked to me.

He said that I was really smart because Anna hadn't talked to me or anything when I had tried to hang out with all of her friends before.

Which is true, and it made me feel better.

Anna invited 50/60 people to her party, and most of the people I wouldn't know.

And I barely even know Anna.

My dad always has ways of making me feel better.

So, now here I am still crying my eyes out...they already hurt from all of the crying I did last night.

My eyes are stinging so badly...

My mom asked me how I could be defeated so easily...I don't even know how to answer her.

She's gone now, but she doesn't even want me to be on the computer right now, and if I remember correctly she doesn't want me on it tomorrow too.

:cry:

I feel so horrible right now...

Keep asking myself if it was the right thing.

I'm having doubts about going to the new Christian school too.

What is wrong with me?

I guess I am full of doubt.

I hope everybody else is doing okay...

-Chrissy