Why didn't you ever tell me that you knew? It would've made my life easier.

But I guess there was no easy way to let me know that you knew without making it sound like you were mad at me, right?

Anyway, I'm glad that I told the truth too.

I don't know if I'm going to leave, cuz it seems kinda hard to be friends with people when they know that you lied.

I'm glad that you still accept me as who I am, but I don't know if I can accept myself.

I feel really bad about it, and in a way I want you guys to be mad at me.

I don't deserve you guys as friends.

I'm going to be at volleyball camp this week and when I get back I'll make my decision final.

I'm still not sure if I want to leave, but right now I'm leaning towards leaving.

It's not that you guys are bad, or that no one cares about me...

It's that the punishment to myself is that I leave this website.

It's not your fault and it's not your problem...

"It's not you...it's me."

And this time...it truly is.

I'm sorry that I failed you guys. We'll always be friends.

We all fall...sometimes

We all...let ourselves down

Soemtimes there's nothing left, but to live with what's been done

And know you're not the only one who falls

We all fail...sometimes

We all...let someone down

Sometimes there's nothing left, but to promise to ourselves that next time we won't be the one to fail

I wanna tell you you can go on

That beginnings come from ends

I still believe in you...and so does God

 He's the one who still believes in those who fail

He's the one who still believes in us...who fall

       We All Fall, Superchick

The song is a little over-dramatic, but I feel really bad, and I know I'm being over-dramatic, but I don't lie that much, and I lied to people.

I'm really really sorry.

I let you, and more importantly myself, down.

-Chrissy

PS. You're all really good friends.