I needed to make a blog of this somewhere so i chose here seeing as like 1 person here actually knows me in real life and i dont want a lot of people that i actually hang out with to know about this yet so shut up until i say you can tell peopl Epstein!

K, so for the past month or so Ive been in what some would call a "long distance relationship" with this girl Sydney. I met her through a friend i met at camp so of course I didnt think anything would come from it but it turned out we had a lot in common so she asked me to be her bf and seeing as i liked her a lot I said yes. We were pretty happy for a few months, jus talking over msn and the phone, we went on about random crap and eventually we came up with a plan to meet up in the summer seeing as she only lived like 3 hours away. So everything was going fine until her parents got all retarded about our plan even though they knew all about it. So after that we had a less "I cant wait to see you" relationship and more of an "I cant f*cking stand this anylonger" one. So on thursday night we both were really depressed, I was trying to cheer her up, saying that we could meet next summer and her parents didnt need to know about it but she was still being really pessimistic about the whole thing. It was just on msn so she had her webcam on as she often did but that night she killed herself, right in front of me. I saw the girl I loved kill herself. I really needed to get that off my chest. I havent been doing too much lately, no one really knows about it yet and Id rather keep it that way. So thats why I was all depressed all friday, thanks for the whole plan to put me in a body bag, it was really thoughtful. Anyways...thats it for now.