you know how some times u FEEL like your less then someone else? well iv felt that one too many times.

o ther then FEELing sorry for myself, my best friend did something really stupid. i mean really stupid. she did something to make the pain go away. but all she did was make more. a lot more. im not sure if i should tell someone about it. i'm scared she'll get mad at me. i know that something bad happening to her will be worse then her mad at me though. its so hard to make a decision about something like this. she says not to worry. she also said she wouldn't do it again. i'm not sure if i should believe her about that though. i also don't know who to tell. iv'e told people we both know. but no one that would be able to help her. shes allready in therapy for being an alchoholic at a young age. she almost died from it. people think shes depressed. i dont think she is. she's really happy sometimes. all i want is to help her though. we're not at the same school or anything so it's not like i can tell the guidence counsilor. she says she wont do it again... i want to believe her.... why do people do that anyway... cut... some say its just for attention. well maybe it is. maybe its just a cry for help. im trying to answer it. i know everyone has thought about suicide once in there lives. theres no denying it. everyones wanted to get out one way or another. but i FEEL like i'm not a good friend because she choose to cut instead of just talking to me. i'm there for her and she knows it.

i've always thought what would happen if someone really close to me died. how would i ever mov on? well people close to me have died. 've moved on. but i think it deppends on who they are. not just how you know them. if their someone close to you it changes you. it changes you more then anything in the world can.

i hope i didn't make anyone FEEL uncomfortable by talking about that.
-Jaime-