I've changed. Due in no small part to the issue mentioned in my last blog, I am not the same anymore.

It's hard to describe what I mean, but you know how there are certain, subtle, ways you think and act? Well, my personality and perspective on life has been tweaked. I don't just have different things on my mind than before, but I also act differently.

The way I speak to people is different, I feel less shy or something, but it's not shyness...see? This is why it's so hard to explain!!

OK, here's an attempt at describing it: It's like waking up. I feel all of a sudden like I've been asleep all my life, but I also simultaneously feel like I've just suddenly gone to sleep after being awake all my life. I guess what I mean is I can't tell if this new life is a step down or up from where I was before.

Also, everything I do seems so much more calculated, like almost everything is just a means to an end. Almost anything I do now is just to further a certain goal I have, I don't do things for the sake of it.

Argh! I'm coming across as an idiot right now, I just can't put it into words!! See this blog post? This is a great example of what I mean. Normally I would be summarizing the Revolution specs, or listing the best boss battles or something, but here I am ranting about how I've "changed".