i can't write seriously here because all the stupid rules, "no-free-to-speech rules" (I have for example get "level 26" 7-8 times but always have I been banned temporaly for days and lost points for no reasons.

Anyway, what can I write here, and why do I write here, whats the point? I write to myself like a da*n diary. The clock here I live is 07.13 in morning and I've been up all night & yesterday - Why didn't I slept tonight? Because 2 reasons:

1) I have feeling "dumb" and still does- I never feel "dumb" - NEVER in my life, whatever I do, I just give a cr..p. But yesterday evening I f******d up everything pretty good, and for the first time in my life I feel dumb. I can't write much about it here but it's about a girl I REALLY LIKE, she is an angel, but I shocked her pretty good (I think) ysterday because I was so st*on*ed. Sh****T! I am still st*on*ed like hell, and everyone sleeping right now except me, I have nothing to do and I am afraid that she will leave me now & and if she does everything will be f****d up! Time to take some candy Bye peace out

2) Don't remember