After having thought long and hard about all this (You all know what i'm talking about by now) i have come to the conclusion that i have simply lost faith.

Gamespot has long been, for me, the ONLY website to visit (with the exception maybe of Gamefaqs) as i found others to be, boring, fanboyish, lacking in editorial quality, badly designed, hard to navigate, etc, and have terrible communities.

I don't want to go to any of those sites, but i can no longer frequent a site that has the foul stink of corruption all over it.

So i find myself losing my faith in the entire industry, i find myself questioning what i want to do from this point on. If this is the way the industry is going, do i really want to be a games developer?

Quite honestly, i just don't know anymore. Ever since i layed hands on a controller, i have known the only thing i could do with my life would be to put all my creative efforts into video games, my sole purpose in life, i could invisage no other paths to take, not other careers i wanted to so much as look at.

But now, my mind drifts aimlessly, no longer sure of what it wants. All thanks to Josh Larson, and being hit in the face with the baseball bat of realisation, i new the industry was corrupt, every industry is corrupt, that is a fact of life. But this whole debacle has hit me, hard.

My usual hateful babble is not going to help here, instead i find that even this blog post, much like myself now seems to be floating aimlessly as it struggles to get to a point.

I don't know what to do. Am i overreacting? Probably. Will i get over it? again, probably. But right now, i just want to sit in the corner and do something decidedly emo in nature.

I will be keeping eye on news, and devouring any scraps of confirmed news that i can, but i no longer consider myself a gamespot patron.