Dear Friends,

  Sorry for nor being able to explain the reasons for my sudden departure. Hopefully this will help a little. Let me assure you that I am in good health and have not come to any harm.

  I need change. Emotionally and mentally. Lately I have found myself holding back feelings, fears and problems. Recently I have realised how much this has affected me from certain behaviour that I have displayed, and I have decided to put a stop to what would seem to be a certain self destructive path.

  I'm not stupid, I know I'm not a terrible person. Plus I also know that to look at the problems I have, they would pale in comparison to the ones that other people in this world go through. But I also need to look out for Number 1. Theres no one else to look out for at the moment, so that would have to be me I guess. I wont go into my problems, but lets just say that I'm not going down without a fight.

  As in the previous blog, I am still deleting this account... for my mental state of mind, however strange it may sound, it will help alot. But I will have a new profile... Soul_Of_Snake. This will rarely be used for the time being, until I feel more like myself again. I just have to find out what that feels like.

 Until then take care,

Dean :)

P.S. One off a 100 blogs! Gutted  :P

Not explaining, dont see the point. But take care those I were friends with. I will delete this account in a week.

I've just been through my emails... my sister has a great sense of humour! :D Well, most of our family shares it really, so lucky  she knows what I think will be funny :P Here is a joke that she sent me this morning. Its a little bit risque, but I dont think its bad enough to get me moderated :P Here it is...

A skinny little white guy goes into an elevator, looks up and sees this HUGE black guy standing next to him. The big guy sees the little guy staring up at him and says: "7 feet tall, 350 pounds, 20 inch private, 3 pound left testicle, 3 pound right testicle, Turner Brown."

The white man faints and falls to the floor. The big guy kneels down and brings him to... shaking him. The big says "Whats wrong with you?" In a weak voice the little guy says "What EXACTLY did you say to me?" The big dude says "I saw your curious look and figured I'd give you the answers tot he questions everyone always asks me. I'm 7 feet tall, I weigh 350 pounds, I have a 20 inch private, my left testicle weighs 3 pounds, my right testicle weighs 3 pounds, and my name is Turner Brown."

The small guy says "Turner Brown?!...Sweet Jesus, I thought you said "Turn around"!

:lol: Hee hee made me giggle :P So thats my funny for today.. (Thanks sis! :D )

Feeling ever so slightly better, ate lots of chunky chicken and vegetable soup, drank lots of apple juice and generally walked around with a tissue up my nose all day :P Which I do have a pic of... should I put it up? :lol: Its quite funny, maybe I will, just for the look on my face :P

Plus I've almost finished Metal Gear Solid 3 again... at one of the hardest bits of the game, on the bike with Eva, trying to get the damn Kerotan frogs! I've done it before, I'll do it again...

Dean ;)

I just woke up about half an hour ago... I'm actually supposed to be in work :? Its now... 1.30 in the afternoon, and I should have started at 10.30... but you know what? I had the worst nights sleep ever. Caught a damn cold, bloody throat is all swollen up, nose is runny, eyes are a bit bloodshot... :( I dont like it. I'm hardly EVER ill.... as long as I'm not ill at Christmas, I think I can handle it... but why wont work pick up the phone? :?

To Lvl 19... in 2 days.

Craziness

Craziness.... yesterday I was 2% away from going to Lvl 18, but now I'm 31% past that mark and going strong! What the hell is that all about?!?!  :lol: Oh well, shouldnt complain really, just hope that I am not the only one to have experienced this and we've all managed to have a huge jump in our levels :D

In other news.... new banner! :D Whatya think? Was kind of a spur of the moment decision to actually do it, was messing around last night on the PC, and 2 hours later... voila! Its a wee bit slow mainly because the file is quite big, but I am quite pleased with it... only thing I would change is the Coming 2007 bit, so it could actually be seen in the screen... still could do that I suppose.

Got to go for another osteopath appointment in about ... half an hour :P Thankfully my shoulder is starting to mend, though I cant do anything over strenuous with it at all, any type of over stretching or heavy(ish) lifting and I'm all ' oo aah ee' again :P. But I hope to be back in work soon, doesn't pay being ill in this day and age.

PLUS!!! Back to uni soon! :D:D:D I really cant wait to get into my second year and get my teeth right into all the projects they've got ready for us! :twisted: BRING IT ON! :twisted:

Oooo, long blog. Well thats all for today!

Dean ;)

EDIT *** Save writing an extra blog.... an extra 51% in a day?!?!?! What the HELL?!?!? :?

Apple Passion

3/4oz Blue Curacao

3oz Passion Juice

3oz Apple Juice

Float 1/2 Blavod Vodka

Build in order into a tall glass filled with cubed ice.

:D Enjoy :D

Yep thats right! One handed typing! Short and sweet is I went to see osteopath guy, and as well as shoulder he found probs in neck, left pectoral, bicep and top of spine .... :( so I'm off work, hopefully I can get some holiday time to cover it, lets hope so.

*sigh* ah well, he didnt say i couldnt play games! :D

Dean :twisted:

I am angry. I hate my stupid body. Its falling to goddamn pieces. I worked last night, pumped full of muscle numbing pain killers to help me get through the night, had a good night too, the restaraunt closed early because we had the drains in the kitchen overflow with sewage water... mmm nice :P . So we all got out a little bit earlier than planned and though I was aching a bit, I thought I was doing pretty good....

Cue this morning.

I wake up.

 I wish I hadn't.

O Pain pain pain godamnit pain.

:evil: :cry: :evil: :cry: :evil::cry: :evil:  

 Everyone get up from their PC's and try the following...

1 - Arms by sides.

2 - Rotating from the shoulder, keeping elbows locked and straight, raise arms forward above your heads in an arc.

Easy right? In rotational terms thats about 180 degrees. Well for me, this is a physio exercise, trying not to roll my shoulders forward and keeping them at my sides. The idea is to use only my shoulders as the lever point and nothing else. But when I do it.... right side is fine, but left side, from 20 degrees to about 140-150 degrees.... owwowwowwowwoww!!! :( :cry: :evil: :cry: So i'm off to see a specialist on Monday, hopefully he can cure me once and for all.

In other news... Finally started Shadow of the Colossus. Man, what a game :D Defeated about 4 Colossi so far, shot some lizards, eaten some fruit, basked in breathtaking beauty of such a wonderful world. Just riding around in that game gives me immense joy :) Makes me feel so peaceful....

And I'm almost a fully Certified TGI's Bartender! Go Me! :D

Dean ;)

Strawberry Daiquiri

1 1/4 oz White Rum

1/2 oz Strawberry Liquer

1/2 oz Simple Syrup

3/4 oz Lime Mix

1 1/2 scoops crushed ice

Blend all ingredients together to a "slushy" consistency, and serve in a tall glass. Garnish with Strawberry.

:D Enjoy!!! :D