Hello there emos i understand that you are saying your life is dark and sad. maybe you should reconsider that. think of the children in Africa who are starving everyday and have a chance of death or their parents are dead and does not know them, maybe doesn't know their names. if you look at the depressed people. Everyday they wake saying to themselves "why was i born to this world? why can't i just DIE!?" or 10 times the worst, if you search the world around using google, you find people who are in WORST state than you are and you cannot imagine how they are.

your life is not dark or sad as you say it is. try to talk it out to your parents and say you need help, speak out for what you need and what must change in your life. i know did, everything i said right i have done, i searched google to see if there are people out there who are in a state who are having their lifes worst than me and in terrible condition as i though i was. then i realized i'm not in dark life nor is my life sad. search the world and see for yourself.