I am just copying nad pasting this piece by piece from something I wrote in a chat box on another forum:

I swear I have the worst luck in the freaking world and I cannot get anything to go right for me right now. It pisses me off. Every time I think I have finally dopne something that will get me out of this **** I have been in for hte past several months, it falls through. It's a never ending cycle and I have been trying tp keep my spirits up and stay hopeful but it's taking it's toll on me. Big time. My patience with my situation has worn thin and I am frsturated and stressed out to the point where I do not sleep much at night. My muscles are constnatly tense. I need a break from everything and I know damn well that I will not get one any time soon. Stress is causing me to wake up daily with pounding headaches and I feel almost powerless to change anything at this point because every attempt I make falls through my fingers like sand. Ugh. I hate this life. I hate the way things are right now. I can't keep doing this. I I have to keep pushing myself, but I fear my emotional and mental strength are growing weak. Almost as if I have virutally nothing left in my tank, you know what I mean? My constant attempts to change my status always end in failure, and it kind of makes me wonder if I even can change what I know needs changing? But I know if nothing changes, it is only going to get worse - particularly when I become homeless in 40 days. I'M ONLY HUMAN DAMN IT! Just how much punishment can I take before I throw it back in the face of someone who is completely innocent. Built up rage. That is what it is more than anything. I feel like.....like I am going nowhere and, despite my attempts to fix this, I am going to continue to go nowhere until it costs me everything, and that pisses me off more than you know. Almost as if I have virutally nothing left in my tank, you know what I mean? My constant attempts to change my status always end in failure, and it kind of makes me wonder if I even can change what I know needs changing? But I know if nothing changes, it is only going to get worse - particularly when I become homeless in 40 days. I'M ONLY HUMAN DAMN IT! Just how much punishment can I take before I throw it back in the face of someone who is completely innocent. Built up rage. That is what it is more than anything. I feel like.....like I am going nowhere and, despite my attempts to fix this, I am going to continue to go nowhere until it costs me everything, and that pisses me off more than you know. I FREAKING HATE MY LIFE THE WAY IT IS RIGHT NOW DAMN IT! I NEED CHANGE! I NEED IT BEFORE I TAKE MY RAGE OUT ON SOMEONE UNDESERVING! I NEED CHANGE DAMN IT AND I NEED IT NOW! WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME! WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO TO BE ABLE TO EARN MONEY AGAIN! JESUS! THAT ALONE WOULD LIFT THE WHOLE FREAKING WORLD OFF OF MY DAMN SHOULDERS! ****! I AM SO SICK OF THIS!

It's not long, detailed and structured in paragraphs like my typical blog posts are and I don't freaking care. I am just pissed off, stressed out and depressed. Life can go screw itself.

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