today was ok i guess. i feel depressed tho b/c i saw jennifer holding hands with jaime and that was depressing to me but on a better note i think that i might go out with this one gurl but idk. i think that jaime and jennifer havnt kissed yet or at least i hope not. that would suck for me a lot i would go crazy and do somethin stupid and i dont want that to happen. i hope that they break up soon. but if not ill hav to liv with it i guess but that would be the worst. so i hope it works out between me and he . everyone wants it to work out between us.

there is this gurl at mi skool and her name is vanssa. i dont no if i should go out with her but if i do i dont hav long. i lik her a little and jennifer is telling me to ask her out. so i dont no. wut do u think

today has been better then yesterday b/c i dont feel as bad as i did. jennifer (the gurl i lik) asked if i likede he friend and i said yes b/c i do, but only a little bit so now she wants me to ask her out but i dont want to b/c if i do i hav to break up with her at the end of the skool year, and i dont want to hav to do that. so 2days been ok so far.

i feel so depressed . the gurl i luv is goin out with mi friend and i cant take it. im gald that she is happy but i want to be the guy she is happy with but i guess thats not goin to happen b/c she is goin to the new skool and i hav to stay at the old one i want to be the one thats makes her smile but i cant anymore b/c i had mi chance and i blow it. i cant beleive i was so stupid to let her go i wish she could read this but she thinks that i get annoying when i tell her how i feel. i want to hav God take me away.:cry: