I initially wanted this first post  to be somewhat amusing, but right now, I'm just  numb to the world.  My parents called me this morining to let me know that my grandfather had recently passed away this past weekend.  Now of course we know that people die all the time. You know, the whole "circle of life" thing.  But the way my mother found out was almost cold-hearted.  Allow me to fill in some backstory.

My mom was never too close withe her family.  She was considered the black sheep by the rest of her brothers and sisters, probably she was only 16 when she gave birth to me.  They always had some animosity torward her bacause of this, even though my dad stood by her side.  She tried to make peace with her father, but he always found faults with her. At around the time I turned 8, she finally had enough and broke off ties with him.

They hadn't spoken to each other for alomst 20 years.

Sunday afternoon she recived a call from her sister saying he had died.  The cold blooded part was that they already had the funeral a few days earlier. No one even told her that he passed earlier in the week. Needless to say she took it hard. 

As far as I'm concerned, I don't know how to feel. Right now I feel...numb. I should feel some sorrow, but I'm more concerned about my mom's well being. She's holding up okay for the most part.  The last time I shed any tears for anyone who died was my uncle on my dad's side back in 2000.  I don't know if it was the fact that I hadn't seen my grandfather since I was a kid, or maybe I've grown so jaded that his passing doen't mean anything to me.

I guess what I'm trying to say is this:  If there's someone in your life that you care about, be it family or friend, tell them they're loved.  Buy them a drink, get them a card, do something for them.  Let them know you care.  Life's too damn short.

My next post will be more lighthearted.  I promise.