man its been a long time nothing much has been happening. Im no longer a security guard. And its beena really messed up summer. I havent been working and i no longer have online and havent played ffxi. I watch anime once in a while. Im just trying to get my life back together. Been thinking of relocating to another state and starting over. I really need to get my priorites in order. I really dont know about career choices and school is nothing but a delusional dream. A dream ive been chasing since 1990. My this really sucks. Im going to counseling and then physcatiry. Man i hope i can get back on my feet and do the the things i love to do. Video Games anime movies. MY goals are to get back into school and to make an homage to tokyo japan. i want to meet the makers of my favorite videogames and anime.