Let's see: I've been here for more than 5 years, on and off, accumulated some 10,800 posts, and have posted on this blog hundreds of times. But I have as little of an audience now as I did then, maybe even less. No matter what forum or topic I'm in, I always seem to get the short end of the stick when it comes to popularity and getting noticed. Now, mind you, I'm not complaining because I'm an attention whore. Far from it. I'm worried that I won't have the capability to do well in life. If I can't get noticed here, or have a particularly large following, how can I ever hope to accomplish any goals of mind in enterprise, where so much hinges on not just running your operations well, but also being noticed, being popular, turning over revenue, and ultimately, bringing results for everyone involved? Now it doesn't seem so unimportant, especially if I want to succeed within the bounds of e-commerce. And keep in mind, this problem also extends to my real life.

I suppose it's a problem that hinges on self motivation and being proactive. But you see, that's not easy at all to change, given my conditions and me being at a relative disadvantage coincidence wise, motivation wise (at least for the immediate time being), skills wise, and ability to relate to people. Plus, like I said, I know people who have done a lot less than me in volume, but have accumulated a very influential and significant following. I hardly ever get even a nod on here, just like how I'm anticipating to receive no comments on this post.

Maybe this will resolve itself somehow, and everything will work out. But being so faithful on just faith alone is a one way ticket to being disappointed, or leading to your ultimate downfall. Maybe I'm being too pessimistic or hard on myself. But we'll see.