I don’t know what’s happening to me, but as the years go by time goes by a lot faster. I feel like everything is meaningless. If you have read some of my posts in religious debates or relationship advice threads you’ll see how I question and doubt absolutely everything. The bad thing about this is that you have nothing to rely on anymore. You realize your life doesn’t have a real purpose, that no matter what you do, it will never be good enough. I can’t laugh. Whenever anyone in my class does something “funny” and everyone starts laughing hysterically, I just sit there and watch, or I fake laughing, not because I care about what they thing but because I don’t like being like this. I can’t cry either. I get pissed off by the silliest things. I’ve cut people out of my life for the stupidest reasons (not that I regret it or anything) and I never truly forgive anyone. But nothing gets to me anymore. I only get close to crying while watching a good show or a movie, that’s the only thing that excites me anymore. I know how I said I was leaving, but I’m still here. School bores me to tears, so does my family. Nothing ever really changes, nothing is exciting. I think I actually hate my life, even though everything’s pretty okay now, I have nothing to look forward to when I get up, just another day like any other. I know many of you might be thinking and typing “Emo kid!” or stuff like that. But I don’t hate life, I’m just bored to death by it…