To gain something, you have to let go of something first. Remember that everything is balanced, even if we are unaware of this balance ourselves. If there was no dark, there would be no light. If there was no sorrow, there would be no happiness. If there was no hate, there would be no love. I am leaving this site today with no chance of returning but a part of myself remains here. Thank you for reading and take care, dear reader.

"Huh, challenging? Sounds like this guy is just an untalented, impatient noob.", "Cheap? You gotta be kidding me.", "This guy needs a lesson in being patient and not weeping over a challenge.", "Damn millennials need to be hand-held in everything."

Did any of the above thoughts run through your head when you read the title of this blog? Probably. But just take a moment, run some cold water through your hair, calm down and think: What's the line between challenging and cheap? Balanced or unbalanced? Broken or punishing? What is it about the Souls games that makes you feel that it is challenging, balanced and even punishing rather cheap, broken and unbalanced? We all know that these games can be frustrating, and yes, people do break their controllers and keyboards over it. But what is it about these games that makes you persist with dying a hundred times? Just because someone already warned you that it WILL be challenging and you WILL die a lot? Because you know that everybody will die a hundred times? Maybe you're just so naturally gifted, its a walk in the park for you. You may as well be the guy who beat the game in 20 Minutes. Hooray for you, you made me jealous. But to all those who tore their ass off to make it past each boss in the series, why?

Its a psychology I can't understand. I've played Bloodborne a lot recently, and it was hard, very hard, making it to the end. And I made it to the end. But at the end, I wasn't really even focused on the ending. A question echoed through my mind: What made me go this far without enjoying even a second of it? An immediate answer was that I wanted to prove to myself that I can do this but I'm not satisfied with it. Maybe you can answer that question for me, dear reader.

Have you ever completed a game, returned to it later and felt that you didn't make it the best experience it could be? Then you may feel some connection with I'm about to type into this blog here. Just maybe.

The Witcher 3: Wild Hunt is a beautiful game. It is made with fantastic attention to detail, it just oozes love for game creation and a passion to ensure the best experience for the player. But let me admit, this is something I had to take off a blindfold for. Let me clarify, in fact, think of this as a confession: I rush through games. Well, most of them. The Witcher 3 was in the most of them. I put in 145 Hours into the game, yes, I know you want to smack me on the head and tell me "Dude, get a life!" but just bear with me and let me explain my situation. The Witcher 3 is FULL of stuff to do. What I did was do was really burn through all this amazing content without ever admiring or putting some thought into it. I completed the storyline, did every contact, cleared the Velen and Novigrad maps, and even tried my hand at a lot of Gwent. But I didn't enjoy myself. I didn't stop and breathe and admired the scenery, I didn't try and dig deeper into each character's actions, in fact, I feel I didn't even spend enough time with Geralt. The character moving on screen was not some badass Witcher with a three-dimensional personality, it was a dummy running from place to place to satisfy my thirst of getting through the game.

Now I pop the disc back in, and I regret. I regret not walking slowly to admire the grass or the sunlight moving through the trees, I regret not taking my time with the combat and engaging in a sadistically violent dance with the enemy instead simply hacking through them, I regret not sitting back and taking glee in the machinations of the narrative and most of all, I regret not having the time to right what was wrong. Even a masterpiece may not feel worth the $60 price tag if you're not giving yourself to the time to enjoy it. That's something to keep in mind, dear reader.