If this is life then why do I live
Is there somethin' I could do or somethin'g I could give
From what I'm seein' I cause nothin' but pain
You should see the look on people's faces when they hear my name
Everytime I'm alone I reminice
of all the old times that were filled with bliss
It's funny how much can change in 4 years
Thinkin' about it brings me to tears
People say that I ain't seein' the right reality
And that for all this time I had the wrong mentality
But how could I believe this when nothin' good comes my way
And if something does it'll be gone in a day
It hurts knowin' my brother wishes I was never born
Everyday I have to wake up and feel his scorn
It's even worse because he wishes I'd die
This really hurts deep inside of my mind