Ok today i had a fight with a classm8...AGAIN!

And now the class hates me(AGAIN!)

I feel still dipressed i mean i never had a true friend in real life i wonder how it feels to have one.

Worst of them all is that i lied to my parents and wen't to a party(where my class was) and well i ws there but hideing in the toilets and crying(AGAIN!)

Crying because because i said to my parents that i got alot of friends while i got no-one:cry:

that really did hurt me alot.

And some of you all know the reason why i come here is to fill that empty spot in my hart but well... i can't seem to fill it:(

I feel so dipressed that i start to talking things( like my pencil,and the earaser,a drawing i drew on my hand,...)

i don't know how long i can keep this up i'am still cryng every night like 5 hours(secretly from my parents and sis of course!)

And i know why i don't have friends its because i'am strange and well...i can be good to adults and adults same to me but kids around my ago to me and me to them NO:cry:

I don't know what i shoud do some stuff say you can dissipair from here thats better.

my pencil says i better shoud stay here and well try to make me feel by being here online.

I'am so Desspered for just a true friend i xoud even give my life for one right now...