Goodbye, nii-san. I'll miss you terribly but understand why you have to do this. be safe and happy. I wish to establish contact with you again someday. I realize that it might be impossible, but hopefully after a few months or even years, we can find a medium you can live with. I don't see this being the end of our friendship - our siblingship. I hope you don't either.

And to the people who read this, these blogs will probably become very common. Im very distraught right now, having to give up my beloved big brother and a friend i've known for seven+ years. So yeah.

So here was my day today. I started my job. It looks like it will be a nice distraction from my problems. I also got my pheonix down necklace, because yes, I am that geeky. Last night two of my sisters and I watched the rest of Charmed season 3 and the birdcage. Tonight we're starting Buffy season 3.

I also established contact with my victorian romance again. because honestly, i think i need to move past the last magical four months of my life. and the only way i know how is to go back to the way things were before. and maybe, just maybe, I can gain my former confidence back. be the sister my brother deserves. Only time will tell