Now I'm fading, into someone else, maybe someone I don't wanna be, yeah I'm fading into what you want and I'm not taking it to well

^ Not exactly the most accurate of lyrics. Honestly, they hit a few good points, but I'm not becoming what anyone wants me to be. And thats the part I'm not taking to well.

I know who I am. I am Kida-Asumi Uchiha Hikari. Its the root of who I am and will always be.

Yet I'm trapped. I'm caged. My mind tells me to beware the people that I care about because they don't really care about me. Thats probably not true, but who knows. Anything is possible.

I'm lonely. So very, very lonely. I feel myself becoming isolated and it terrifies me. I don't like it. Everyone makes me feel like I am missing the bigger picture when I'm not. If I say we never talked about it, we never talked about it.

I don't know why Sunday's are so hard. It could be work. Some stuff has been happening, some good, some bad, and some downright interesting.

I want to be happy and nonchallant. Maybe next year will bring positive changes. I certainly need them. I can't take this crying bullsh*t for much longer.

I think I've finally learned to become numb again, thank god. Emotions are annoying.

Not really sure what else to say. My distraction appeared so I'm going to wallowing in it while doing hw and then go to bed.