I wrote this tonight after I've had a little time to meditate on what I have been doing wrong. After realizing that my dating chances have finally dropped down below, I have nothing to lose by dropping the "Brotherly friend" card. That's the most powerful play I have right now. However, in order to address all of my sentiments, I mixed in some of my more personal thoughts that she has no idea about that I plan to keep secret to make the friendship more successful. Therefore, while I plan to try to tell her some of this stuff, there is no way I want her to get a hold of this. Anyway, here it is, enjoy:

I would be incredibly happy if you would consider me your brother. I would love it if we could still talk to each other about just about anything. Near the end of last semester I said I loved you. I have to admit, I fell head over heels early last month. I still love you just as much, although I can honestly say that it's the same love that I have for my sister. I love you, and I want you to do well and be happy.

As to your relationship with your boyfriend right now, I want to help it keep going as long as possible if I can. I believe that even in dating, every relationship that you form takes a piece of your heart, and the goal is to give the most of your heart to your other half. That's partly why I never dated in high school, because those relationships traditionally did not last long. However, this one that you are in seems to have long term potential, and if I can, I want to contribute to that as your big brother. Even though I've only known you for a few months and David not at all, if you guys are having any trouble, if I can help repair the rifts, I want to help anyway possible. In fact, if you or David feel nervous about me talking to you, I'll back off entirely if that's what it takes to make you both more comfortable with each other. However, if possible, I really would like to continue to build on our friendship from last semester.

Obviously you two have chemistry, two and half years through high school, and after a semester of being separated you two are back together. I would guess that it would be accurate to say that he's you're first love, right? I remember that last semester you were having a hard time. I asked if the reason you and him broke up was distance. You told me no. Now either there WAS something else that you hopefully resolved, or it was distance, which I really hope that it's not. If distance or jealousy is all it takes to break you up or cause you to have second thoughts, you are going to have a hard time in life. But anyway, you two have history and have been through a LOT, and I'm sure I don't even know a fraction of it.

Hopefully we can continue on this semester with the same sentiment we had towards each other before last semester ended, and I sincerely wish you and David a long and happy future that glorifies God.

Me