Well, I have been depressed lately, so I guess it's time I say why, even if no one cares. I have felt truly unloved this past start of the year. From being called a fat **** a slut and a whore, I just feel down. I'm mostly used to it, but right now I'm so depressed I feel emo. I almost cut myself becasue I'm so depressed. I haven;t felt like this since I had suicidal thoughts back inVirginia. I don't know why, for sure, I feel so bad, but it doesnt matter. I really need a shoulder to cry on, but I'm not that kind of person. I am the one who lets people cry on their shoulder, also I am fat and ugly. No one has sympathy for a fat, ugly person crying.

  Today's just one of those days. I feel so bad, I don;t even feel like living right now. I just wish I would die here typing. Am I the only one who ever feels this way? My friends said that I am so ugly no one cwould care if I showed you a picture of me, and I know it too. I'm one of the few people who would never get kidnapped. And I'm not just saying that becsue I'm a girl. I AM fat, I'm at an extremyl high risk of diabetes becasue I weight too much, so I can't really say anything.

   Well, farewll, I'm going to go comment on other stuff now, though I really don;t care about anything enopugh at the moment. I just wish I could fall asleep and never wake up.

 I have a preview for Eragon!

All Christopher Paolini fans have been looking forward to his book Eragon becoming a movie. I, too, have been looking forward to it for a year and a half, and I have a few things to say. This Movie Sucked! Nothing was the same in the books and movie. Eragon's dragon didn’t grow up, she transformed into an older one. Also, Saphira, his dragon, was supposed to carry him away for a night before they return to the farm. the house was supposed to be in shambles and he was supposed to get help from the villagers, but that never happened on the movie!

    As well, there were never any soldiers in the town throughout the whole movie!

    Brom seemed like a bitter, angry man, like Vegeta, instead of a kind, strict man like he is. Brom seemed really angry, and Eragon doesn’t discover Brom's a rider until Brom is dying. And on the topic of dying, Brom is killed by the Ra'zac, not Durza the shade. OMG! The Ra'zac looked cool, but not like they were supposed to.

    Murtag (I spelled it wrong, sorry) was supposed to come in when the Ra'zac attack and kill Brom, not get knocked out of a tree by Saphira. Also, he was important in the book, not a minute, menacing character like they portray him. And when he appears Arya is there, don’t even get me started on that.

    Eragon was supposed to get thrown in jail, where he meets Arya, who is unconscious and poisoned, HE NEVER TALKS TO HER WHEN SHE'S CONSCIOUS UNTIL THEY GET TO THE VARDEN! Then, after they are arrested, Murtag is supposed to help him escape, where he meets Durza.

    Overall, this movie was flawed all the way through. the whole plot is screwed up, because in the book they were pursuing the Ra'zac, not running. Also, murtag didn’t want to go to the Varden, and there was a werecat in the book! Angela the fortuneteller was supposed to be older, and they stayed in the Varden for a week or two before the urgals attack. FYI, the urgals were supposed to have horns and giant teeth, not look like retarded, tattooed humans.

    As a fan of the book, I was disgusted with this movie, because it had almost NO links to the book at all. Sure, you must be thinking, it has to have some redeeming qualities right? That’s where you're partly right. This movie has good graphics and funny queries that make it good for anyone who hasn’t seen the book. But so many things went wrong that the graphics didn’t make up for it. Arya was supposed to be an ELF (pointed ear, did you see pointed ears????) and her hair is supposed to be black. And, Arya never told Eragon she was a princess. The final battle was good, but in the book, Durza doesn't summon a dragon thing. (Where were the dwarves in the book!? There were no dwarves!!!)

     Overall, I give this book a 1.5 out of 5 for making a complete mockery of the book. (and that's better than I think it should get too, so I’m being generous) If you haven't read the book, it's enjoyable, but if you have, be prepared to be disappointed.

                 -The dictator wanna-be KuraiKozo

Even thought i'm a girl, i don;t get girls at all, half the time everyhting they says contradicts itself. I have alot of friends who are guys, and often the ask me what a girl likes in a guy, becasue i hang out wiht a lot of girls as well.

   after grabbing a pair of bonoculars, a hidden microphopne, and being a total idiot and listening in oin conversations in my all girls choir, i have a few guidlines, rules, and tips about women and how to handle them.

    *gitls are never satisfied*

-If you love them and are too affectionate, they will dump you

-if you are not afectionate enough, they will dump you

-if you admit they look fat and/or have flaws, they will dump you and/or kill you with a serrated spoon from the cafeteraia.

-if you flirt wiht other girls, they will dump you and you shall be labled as a man-whore.

  *girls can be horndogs too*

-girls use their breasts to sedate guys, no matter what they say about pedafiles and perverts

-even honest looking girls like to get it on the action

-I'm probably one of the only virgins in my all-girl choir.

-girls use their breasts to sedate guys and leave them breahtless

*girld have high standards*

-MOST girls like sensative, buff guys who are tall, with dark hair, are muscular, are sensitive, shave regulalry, care about hygine, who don't eat like pigs, who take them out to diner, who are sensative, who will pay the bill, who will always tell them they're pretty, who don;t talk about their boobs in front of other guys, who don;t take advantage of them, who are sensaztive, who act dignifies but can be funny, will stand up for them,. will know when to quit, and guiys who are sensative.

-my next advice, if you're not ALL of the things above, give up on girls for now, ;cuz most of 'em are boitches, sluts, whores, prostitutes or idiots.

hope all you guys out there will find a great girl!

wow. i started readin mangas a long time ago, via my friend Sean, but as of yesterday i read a new series. I was familiar with Love Hina, DNAngel, GirlsBravo, and FMA, but i decided to read vampire game. it was awesome! it's about a vampire king, duzzel, who was killed by siant phelios, and reincarnated as a cat. Duzzel, driven by hatred and a want for revenbge on phelios's reincarnation, is adopted by Isthar, phelios's great grandaughter. Now the two are oin a journey for phelios's reincarnation to kill him. Beneath all the fighting and violence, there is a little romance. all the princes and men are trying to marry ishtar so they can be the next king. But, Ishtar loves her bodygaurd Darres, whoi despises her. though irt seems based on love--there is a main battle concept and alot of fighting and deciet. Whenever there's vampireds invovled, hell wioll break free.

                    KuraiKozo out.

uh....i got sick with a sore throat on friday and uh...on saturday and sunday it felt like little shrapnel shards and whatnot was in my throat. on monday i had a stuffy nose and my throat really hurt. on tuesday i got sick. i doidnl;t feel good and couldn;t talk right and couldn;t sing in choir. on tuesday it was even worse...agh....on thursday, today, oit was a,little better...but i still feel a bit sick. Tommorow, hopefully, i will be okay. Even my friends say i don;t sound good. and i haven;t been eating lunch at school 'cuz i fell nauseated. now it's like ick...i feel better but my nose is still all plugged up and drips like a leaky faucet. man...i hope i'm perfec tby tommarow.          

                                sadly, i also got kicked out of my language class becasuse my teacher was angry and i alughed at someting my friend showed me. i've enver gotten kicked out before--escept one year ago in P.E., but that was because my dumba** teacher amde us run the F****** mile and then a bunch of laps and my foot hurt so i quit thazt day. 

                              i hope i feel better soon....                                                                               

  how do you change your stats? i don;t know how to change my showbreakdown,, submissions, or reviews thing. i wanna put stuff on 'em and i don;t know how!

  Aslo, how in the world do i stick pictures to my forum posts? I can't figure out this sight...it confuses me...man...i wanted to put thet video i just talked about on here, but it's npt the right foramat....man....

  lately my friend the_reincarnation_of_inuyasha gave me a copy of some movies she made (she's not on this sight sadly)

  it has a sessh movie she made and i have been watching it the past three days becasue i'm so fricking addicted to the song on it, i think it's called poison. it goes like,

 your cruel device/ your blood likem ice/ one look could kill/ my pain your thrill/  i wanna love you but i better not touch/  i wanna hold you but my sensse tell me to stop/ i wanna kiss you but i want it too much; i want to tasts you but your lips are venemous-poison!/ your posion running through my veins/ your poison/ i don;t wanna break agian!!!

   themn it's a long mix of music and stuff, it's really cool. the whole time Sessh is fighting and whatnot. i'm so addicted to the song, here comes the seocnd verse!

 Refrain:  i don't wanna love but i but i but i better not-i don;t wanna love you but i but i better not- repeat like 5 or 6 times

   you're mouth so hot/ you;'re where i'm cauhgt/ your skin so wet/ playback songs with/ i hear you pulling and its needles and pins/ i wanna hug you just to scream my name' /don;t wanna touch you but your touchin my skin/ i wanna kiss u but your venemous-poison!

   then it repeats that refrain a few times and is just mux music agian. I've been listening to it non stop while i type...i am so addicted

  I was in citizenship, not computer class. We were just supposed to research something about the legislative branch.

  well, i mine as well say who i am and introduce myself. Ahem, my name is Shannon, but all my friends-who know i want to be a dictator-also know me as KuraiKozo. My favorite subjects are science, language, and whatever else. I really hate math, P.E, Health, and that sort of stuff. Two years ago i started typing my own series of books. I am fourteen years old and love reading as well. I am a big fan of most anime.

  Playing video games is my favorite pastime-but beating boys in it is my sacred duty.

  I find it cool when people can freely express who they are without criticism-or not-but just expressing things is great. I am one who often has different opinions-so i love sites like this.

  All the world is just a big place of contridictions, so i have made it a habit to replace regular reality and substitute my own. Becasue of this-i am freely able to look at new things. that is why i shall cinquer the univers

                              Shannon KuraiKozo the dictator wanna-be

    i am in school as you read this (maybe not, but as i type this) and i am bored out of my skull. i am not supposed to be typing this-but citrizenship is boring and i can't focue on history.

    so, how is everyone? my assasins are preparing to bomb Australis--but otherwise everything is cool. The sky is sunny with some moderate clouds and tommarow is a short day of school and then saturday will come.

    then i will get to see naruto and trinity blood, yeah for violence!