Sigh. On the roommate front things are looking grim. It's becoming more and more unpleasant and unhealthy to live where I am due to several things, including hard drug usage, unruly dogs, lack of cleanliness, loss of privacy, frequent fighting etc... I don't know where I'll go but I can't continue to live with my roommates. If I do I'll have a nervous breakdown within a few weeks. On another front, someone I once thought was a very close friend has essentially started ignoring me, except for the most meaningless crap, ever since I came out. I know it can make some people uncomfortable, but I really thought I could count on this person, if not for support, at least for conversation or communication. It just hurts to feel like I'm losing a friend, but it's not the first time I've been hurt by this friend so I think it's time to just give up and say goodbye. I don't wanna be hurt anymore. On a less unhappy note, my physical losses are now up to 50+ pounds and almost 7 inches from my waist since I moved back to Tucson. Now I think I need to start working out and put on some muscle weight because I'm at the point where I'm gonna start looking scrawny rather than thin and fit. I'm already thinner than I was when I was on the swim team in high school, so I need to bulk up a bit. But not like one of those gross bulging-muscly people, just to broaden my shoulders again and get some definition in my abs. :) Happy day!