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proverbs:

62. Yes I agree that we are a violent race. Its our emotions, their at war within us. And we can do nothing but move forward and search for peace through destruction. I know its pointless but we cant just deny our emotions, they are who we are. They are what makes us human!

mustang: 14

i think my dog is insane. one of my dogs, saskia, had puppies. and the other one, tip, has an old doll of one of the 101 dalmations puppies and she caries it around like its her own puppy. tip is about 10 years old, human years that is, and she has only had one puppy and it died before being born. i think this is proof that animals other then humans are capable of experiencing emotions such as sadness, regret, lonliness, jealousy, and depression. she is too old to have puppies anymore, she never had any children, and now she is treating this doll like it is her own puppy, she doesnt even like me to touch it. she is really getting old and grey, i think she may die soon. that is so sad, she has been the one most consistent thing in my life since i was 7, and if she dies my life will lose that consistency. she wont be waiting for me outside, waiting for me to say hello, and good girl, and give her a kiss and play with her. going outside wont be the same without seeing her jump up to come see me, even if i dont stop to play with her. i think her death will be the sadest moment of my life so far. i wish i could spend more time with her in her last years, but im always too busy. i feel like such a bad person because i cant find time for my dog that loves me so much. i will really regret all of the times that i never stopped to say hello on my way to school or work. but there is nothing i can do about that. i love you tip, more then u will ever know. i will try to enjoy what little time i have left with her, i will try to enjoy it as much as humanly possible because i know she will enjoy it as much as doggedly possible.