I thought she was different, I really did. She acted all nice around me and told me she loved me, but now she's off flirting with some other guy, and she doesn't even really talk to me. This morning she was like "oh hey" when I went into the lunch room and sat by her, and for like everyone else shes like "OOO hey there, give me a hug". So I just left. I live in a world where I have to be high at school to stop from killing myself. I hate life. I hate everyone in my life. I really want to drop out of high school, but my mom wont let me, but after high school I'm going to lock myself in some dark underground bunker where I can grow my own food, weed, and get fresh water. I really wish I could just disconnect from the social world, but I have too many people who call themselves friends to get out of it all. Oh! To make matters worse, she started ignoring me on Valentines day, how ironic. The day of love, I get what little I have left of my heart torn into even smaller pieces. I'm going to learn how to genetically alter myself so I don't have emotions. The only thing I love right about now is the painkillers I'm on that **** with my head enough to just ignore everything thats going on. I have to watch some gay movie in second hour, so ima go. Have fun with all of your lives.