So, my grandmother died the other day and today was the funeral. Everybody seemed to be fairly teary...except for myself. Though that is most likely because of my beliefs. The problem is that I think it might make me seem less human to do so. What was your reaction to the death of another family memeber???

Have you ever read "The Outsider", it was a short novel by Albert Camus. At the begginning of the book, the main character: "Mearsault", finds out that his mother has died, and for some reason, he does not feel sad, or happy, or any real emotion. Following the funeral, he goes on a journey, in which he sees the life around him becoming more and more superficial--the he shoots a man once, in self defence...followed by 4 more shots. He turns himself in, goes to trial, is convicted, and then hung.

The point I am trying to make is that he was an existentialist--is that what I am becoming? I do no expect anyone but myself to be able to answer this question. *sigh*hmm...