Just a heads up I'm just blurting out thoughts as they come on this one, don't bother reading it unless you're pretty bored.
Soooo just got back from a school meeting about managing stress. Now I feel really damn edgy. They're going out of their way to tell us not to stress out too much about the next year of our lives. They went out of their way, and I went out of my way to be told that the next year shouldn't be that stressful. Hm.
You see as of last Monday I've joined the oh so scary Year 12! My final mark determines whether I'm going straight into university next year. Woo. I don't even know if I want to go to uni, but everyone I know seems to want to. Everyone is pushing me, as if I really, really want to get a good mark and am really stressed out about it.
Thing is, I'm not stressed about school. What stresses me out is other people being stressed out, and telling me not to worry. Should I be woried? Am I doing something wrong? I don't think I care as much as other people about school or my final mark, and I'm not sure if that's a bad thing. There's always alternatives to get into basically any uni course if I wanted to, it takes a bit longer but it's easier. I just don't want to work to live and live to work.
I try to enjoy the now, I do what I feel like when I feel like; but I also try to please others, I want to live up to their expectations, which are apparently set a lot higher then mine. I just really don't want to always be working to improve my status in a workforce, or get a better job. I'd be happy with an apartment and a Datsun really. All I want is to be happy. People find happiness through achieving their goals and I understand that, but I'm not sure that's my thing.
On a lighter note I made a BIT.TRIP RUNNER review earlier this afternoon, before the meeting that was made to calm me down fired me up. It's a pretty fun little game though I'm just so awful at it. Can't even get past the first chapter!
Sorry this was a bit of a ramble I just wanted to gather my thoughts. If you read it, well, thanks I guess.
-mini