i havent update this for along time already..i was just so depressed the last few days..not depressed but lonely and i dont know why.. i just feel so empty inside me..

i was typing this before i sleep last night..

all i want is to be happy beside you.  all i want is to share my life with you but things tuned out so badly that i cant even smile. knowing tHAT theres no future a head of us.all i want is to be happy beside you. all i want is to share my life with you.

am not yet done with that.. hope that someday i can finish it.. hehhe

i have a new crush! his my classmate since grade 6 till now second year highschool i really really ignore him his been my seatmate for almost ayear but hell i dont care .. now i am realizing that he is so damn hot! his so intelligent good in debate and stuff! and now will have our summer vacation next week grrrrrrr... cant believe this!

waahh!! everyones nervous! all 2nd year students are nervous because we need to defend our research this thurs!! grrr... i just want to skip thurs! i cant be absent or anything if i'd be absent i'll not pass my second year they will hold my card!!!and havent done my narrative report and many more things! we have alot of things to submit!

wow! i planned on dieting to day ehhe,, and guess what i ate alot..heheh

am not in the mood to think about anyting right now! i still need to do my narrative report grrrrrrrrrrrr....about the dance fest we had! and it sucks!

i miss watching one tree hill!!!

im waiting for my crush to log in ..hehehe

hmmm..what else.. so bored...

well till here not in the mood to write.. ehheh

i open this acc or this tv. com to share what i feel, to write what i want to write and just to share what i feel. mybe alot of you will ask why not open a blog in multiply or whatever well because my friends cant read this no one knows that i am writing blogs here in tv.com. i mean i can freely express what i feel w/o any one knowing me or because am not a good writer or watever so no one will care to read this.

march 2 a boring day.. its dismissal already and we have to do our research so i use the internet and open my account since am not checking it for a couple of weeks already to my surprise its already level 3! wow! i mean yeah its still a low level but honestly i dont know how this works so anyone please can you help me??? anyway i have a mix feeling right now.. hehehe... hmmmm.. i want to have our vacation and its 3 weeks from now.. but theres also a feeling that i dont want to have a vacation even am so damn tired with studies.. ehheh... i just want to see the guy my inspiration the one that makes me smile even though he doesnt know... i dont know if am going to tell him or anything bec. we have a past and that sucks! but everytime we see each other theres always this glance i can see from him that makes me hold on!!!and wish that someday our lives will cross again!! i dont want to be an emo or watever....  hehheh.. well till here gotta do my research!

sophia bush also known as brooke davis in one tree hill.. i really like hr character there. she's so pretty and hmm lets say a happy go lcky girl its just so sad that her relationship w/ luke ended and her being friends w/ peyton is a mess..

as you can see this is my first time checking this site and am tying to figure how this works. what lead me to this is one tree hill. last two weeks am so addicted to it i bought dvds, checked the net read about one tree hill. infact i sleep around 12 am just watching this show and i wake up 4 am and go to school. hehe.. well am not good in witing or expressing my self or whatever  you call it journal i guess well am tryng to. well i need to go and check out other stuff and explore.