I have tried so hard. everytime we get close we just get further apart. Im starting to believe that Im Chasing the Ghost of a Good Thing. Something that will never be. It makes me mad and upset. I have to cut another relationship down because I can NEVER be friends with her. I will always like her. But she will NEVER like me. I should look at others. It hurts...I dont know what to do. Im trying to make piceses fit that dont go together. I have nothing to offer her...or anyone. It sucks ive never felt this bad before. And Saturday we are spending the whole night together how am I suppose to keep a smile on my face when I know she is turning her back on me. I just got to let go and leave her..we cant be friends because I like her more than a friend...but we cant be more than that because she only sees me as a friend. So its better off just to leave and try to forget. It will hurt but its something I NEED to do. Saturday is the day of my goodbyes. I am not chasing that ghost anymore...there are other things more important im just too blind right now.

Damn I had no clue that in just one month things change dramatically. I basically ditched my old friends and started fresh. I feel so much better and like a new person. Im actually feeling like myslef and not like in someone else's shoes. I have an awesome girl who cares about me as I care for her. I have excellent grades...its just been a good year...so far.

But under all this lies the drama. I met a new chick she is deffinatly evil. She spreads rumers around about me I have no clue what I did to her. She is just a **** and wants to get rid of me! But whatever...I try my best to ignore her and prove the rumors false. Damn I got a Math Test tomorrow so ill see you later Homeskillets!

Well the title says it all! The season permiere of Heroes basically sucked. It was really one of the worst episodes I have ever seen. The storylines seemed very forced to me and for the first time since the show first permiered in 2006 I wanted to stop watching! It was really bad and im uncertain if I will keep on watching. Tim Kring had half a year to make this season and he screwed it up. I thought the last season was heading in a good direction but towards the end it got wierd. Now its umbearable. For example NIkki/Jessica/Tracy should have died but in an effort to keep another storyline going they kept her alive! Oh well hopefully it gets better.

What do you guys think? Is the season permiere good or just whack? Do you wish Mr.Kring could give you two hours back of your life?

On top of this I am going through some major high school drama with one of my friends...well enemy now. It sucks when you lose someone but I cant take it anyomore I am not going to put up with it any longer. After almost six years of knowing eachother I have to say see you never and have good life. It sucks but I cant live up with it anymore.

See you later Homeskillet!

So today was a good day. I am really surprised that there hasnt been any drama in school, but then again its been only three weeks. Actually the most drama thing thats happened is that my best friend got dumped by his girfriend. Its funny cause the girlfriend is are other friends' sister. So now like when we go to his house my friend still has to see his x and its totally akward. Butr so far I havent had girl trouble

I mean I still dont have a girlfriend but I got my eye on someone and I know for a FACT that she has her eye on me. I just dont know how to ask her out. It was easy with other girls in the past but this one is diffrent. She makes me nervous. Im going to invite her to the football game on friday or maybe to the movies. If everything feels right then ill aske her out. I dont want to tell myself that I will ask her out on friday because then it ends up being that I wont because the "mood" isnt right.

So what do you guys think? Should I invite her to the football game or movies? If movies what movie should we see? If you have any other comments please feel free to add them!!! My goal for today is contribute more to gamespot. I hope to review a game soon. Ill see you later Homeskillets

As in my previous posts I have had goals for the week/day and I am pleased to announce that I will continue these goals! The goal for the week is to get the courage to ask out a special someone out on a date. I know for a fact that she likes me I just gotta make the move! The goal for the day is finishing my history project! Well ill post later...im in writers block!! See you later Homeskillets!

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The New Gamespot looks way awesome and is faster...congrats on having the facelift Gamespot you made at least one guy happy!!! On a diffrent but similair note, the new facebook is confusing and pretty much sucks... but im getting use to it! What are your opinions on facebook and gamespot's drastic changes???

Comment Homeskillets!!!

Yep im still alive...and I will be once agin be posting blogs daily so you better read them! The reason for my abscense is cause well gamespot has had some bad publicity lately and I choose to stay out for a couple months. But I'm back its a new school year and its going to be an awesome one...with some difficult exams (SAT's) So check daily to find about everything Im rambaling about. There will be a lenthy post tomorrow!! Catch YOu Guys Later...Homeskillets

Well I was going to post a really nasty blog about the girl that I like because i thought she was using me but a few days ago I realized that just cause she is going out with someone doesnt mean I cant still try and be with her. Sure I do still have to respect her man but I also still have lots of chances. She only sees her boyfriend on Sundays, and even then that's when her dad wants to drive her there. She see's me every weekday and text's me on weekends, I got a great advantage. She wrote her name on her sweater and on my hand...she even gave me a nickname. I'm not gonna get my hopes up but i still want to try to be their for her. If she ever breaks up with the guy I wanna be that shoulder she comes to cry to! Well forget that I missed The Office this week and I gotta go watch it now! I also have to three essays in one day so maybe I should start that. I went to a friends house today and had fun playing Rock Band all day...I think its a great game with great music in it...sadly my friends drum peddle broke and has to go replace it. He tried to tape it but it keeps coming off...he went on ebay and bought a new one. I also got a new charger for the laptop and will post as often as I can. Oh I went to go rent a movie and was stuck on which to choose the battle was between "No Country For Old Men" "I Am Legend" & "Death at a Funeral". In the end I choose "I Am Legend" but I should have gone with No Country...I heard it was good...or maybe I should have gone with low budget comedy (I think these types are the best) "Death at at a Funeral". The disc for "I Am Legend" was all scratched so I couldn't even watch the Begining so i will complain! Which movie should I have gotten? Which movie do you perfer out of those three? Well thanks for reading please comment...see you later HomeSkillets!

Im still alive! But each day is and uphill battle. It's not worth killing myslef for some girl. Forget her she doesnt know what she is missing. What I dont understand is how come she is always flirting with me? I stopped talking to her for a couple of days and she seemed to notice. She was upset cause I was avoiding her. I talk to her now and appriciating every moment with her. I dont care if she isnt single thats not gonna keep me from being with her. I have my whole life ahead of me...and i am anxous to find out whats ahead. I got so many idea bursting in my head and I want to share them with you! I'll see you guys later Homeskillets! (Juno is out in DVD go buy it NOW!!!!)

Finally after months of not watching my favorite shows on NBC...we get Comedy Night Done Right again!!! So everyone make sure to watch My Name is Earl, 30 Rock, and The Office today so we can put NBC in the #1 most watched network!! Expexct a review from me. Lots of things are happenning in my life right now and I am really going crazy. Lately ive been so mad and have no reason for it. I think its because Jasmin is going out with someone else...it's someone she doesnt even know.... I am so not good for her that shed rather go out with a guy from myspace! Yet she calls me endessly to help her and cheer her up...I just dont understand...maybe she just looks at me as a friend. So im trying to avoid her...maybe if I avoid her we wont be friends and stuff. Is this a good plan? So much drama in my life...This is just the begging of the problems...my friend is pissed at me and frankly im tired of his show off personality...i have another friend who thinks she might have "a bun in the oven" so to say...and im scared for my future...i am constantly feeling like crap i feel like everyone hates me. I am scaring myslef...i tried to commit suicide...and was so scared...in the end i was mad for not finishing the job. I need someone...I feel stupid and cant take it anymore.