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**** Boredom!!!  I've been going freaking insane the last couple of days, watching movie after movie.  Sometimes I wonder why my life has this pattern of being in the limelight one month, then the next I feel so bored I start wondering if I'm becoming introverted.

Like take today for instance, the high point of my day was going to 7-11 to get a cuban sandwich and a green tea, then sitting by the ocean by myself eating. Thats all well and good when I want time to be alone.But I am a fiend for "action". If Im not doing something entertaining, why the **** am I doing anything at all???

And as for a dramatic comparison. I met up with a couple of girlfriends a couple of weeks ago who proceeded to take me out to a strip club where a couple of them used to work, we rode there in a stretch Bentley, and we had the VIP tent all to ourselves. We also stayed way past closing drinking till the sun came up, I payed for not one drink and was handed over 40$ in one dollar bills to "shower" one of the dancers on stage just to, how one of my girlfriends put it "Prove she was a whore".

Don't get me wrong I cherish all the crazy ass times in my life so far that I've been able to experience. I just wish my "lifes energy" would pick a path already and stick with it!! Enough with the stock-market esqe waves of joy and boredom!!! **** Is it to much to ask?????