SO I'M GONE. I can tell a million times over and over that I am not Sporky-man, but if no one believes me... that's just fine. You all can live with the lie that Onilink/Damnedangel = Captainsporky/Nuclearman/Shinotsubasa and I won't do a thing......
This actually broke me to pieces, even though it's not the truth, everyone is believing this lie, and so this is where I stand. Well I'm not letting this stupid online crap get to me, I got an actual life to live, there's no need killing myself over the fact that about lots and lots of people reading this lie. You can even believe that this is maybe Sporky writing this. THINK ALL YOU WANT, I'M OUTTA HERE.

I can't take this sh1t anymore. I'm tired of being so depressed all the time, and crying myself to sleep just for a little squabble on the Net.

I'm outta here. See ya.

I AM NOT CAPTIAN SPORKY.

Whoever thought up of this ridicuous trash, I will make sure the truth gets out, and that's why I'm here once more, so that not being "damnedangel" will raise less suspicion. Sen, YOU WILL HEAR ME OUT.

Anyway, if everyone is wondering why I was gone from there, I was trying to get over my breakup, and not too soon after that, I got back to school, and now I'm really busy. I risked not doing a ton of homework for this, so I really hope my message reaches out.

Your thoughts?

Well not only have I had enough of GS, I'm leaving for my own safety. Also, this site has bored me now.... a lot. Sorry, but your blogs have not been getting enough attention lately? Neither are the unions. Nothing interesting has happened lately much. It has been awesome in the past months with you all though. :D Yep, sure was fun back then... well too bad it all has to end. :evil: I'm gonna miss every single one of you, ITS BEEN AWESOME WITH YOU ALL!!!!!!

and I've uploaded the last two music vids you will ever see from me, so I hope you'll enjoy them!!! :lol: one is Dir en Grey's latest PV, Clever Sleazoid and OBSCURE which will be my parting vid, LOTS OF GRAPHIC CONTENT so beware. :twisted:

well this is it, everybody, bye. If you need to see me there's my MSN and AIM if you need it :)

Bye!!!

Heeeeeeeey how's it going ppl? Me not much anymore... Guess life's gone back to normal now... only now I've got more ppl to chat with online yaaaaaaaaaaay... i still need more tho... so give me ur AIM, MSN, or Yahoo if u have one... :D

Yeah, well anyway life's okay though the person who I once knew as my best friend is no longer anymore... not until she talks to me again... if not, then we're enemies... and not just enemies, bitter enemies to the end... :evil:

OK anyway if there was a question you wanted to ask me, go ahead. xD Watever uve been dying to ask me go ahead!!! :lol: Just no negative questions like "WHY ARE U SUCH AN A S S!!!" or ill BAN U. :evil:

Anyway this is the 2/3 last blogs im doing, then IM OUT. Well im not too sure... too many ppl i know know this username, theyll exploit it to my humiliation... even if i make this private... ima gonna need to go under a new name, so ya.

See you ppl, tell me wats goin on lately!

Well this sux... I about lost 1/2 of my friends because of what happened... and I was about totally anti-social lat week, only talked to a few of my friends... Yep and I've got a darker taste for J-music now.... (Moi dix Mois)

and my view of the world currently is (along with the situation im in):

from D'espairsRay Tainted World lyrics:

controlling everything, the ridiculing hypocrites
brandish their drowning lust

feigning tears of deception, their sins are piling up
"Is not it a mistake?"

everyone devoted to greed, blood dirtied, that's destiny... are you hunting for this world?

living without cease, stealing even hope away
the reality(1) of a blindfold deceives

beautiful things are not needed, even compassion is only the voice of appearances     memory of irritation

lies...
break down, tie together, pile up, held overhead
right...
indecision made silent
"I change the world."

show how everything can now be changed by light, hoist into the sky the tomorrow in which I trust
a vortex of guiding thorns, impregnable, I'm sure that the answers are spread out in that place

"without seeing into the midst of the briers, I grabbed as much of the truth there in my hand"

even though it's a mere hope, it should have changed the truth, carved into the world and this blood

lies...
grasp on, break down, don't care, sink in
right...
delusion made silent
"I save you now."

the curtain lifted now on a new world, leaving behind all indecision
wings spread under my hand, cross the wall, I'm sure the answers will echo there

The times is over now...
I draw a new scene...

(if u want to listen to the song, *u gotta have a taste for j-metal* heres the link:

http://esnips.com/doc/549c39e2-47c5-4c7d-91e7-f7eceaf35c4c/11.-Tainted-World---DespairsRay

there ya go)

well this is my 1 out of 3 last posts i will do, I am sorry. I already considered leaving this site, as well as TV.com, mp3.com and other ones, so I'm sorry. Hint though, I will come back as a new screen name, so don't go away. I will abaondon this name, and I will go under a new name

So I'll see you all around, and don't forget you can still see me on last.fm (scarredworld345) yahoo, aol, and aim (they all have the same name)

Sorry ppl i gotta go, it has been awesome here, but it seems I have carried too far with my blogs... and someone apparently is mad (no damn pissed) about that I reavealed that person to the world (i didnt mean to) and now that person is no longer friends with me... and a lot of friends i know hang out with her so i cant hang out with them during school so this damn sucks... yea then today on aim that person told me what hapened, how he/she found out about my blogs and wanted to delete them badly I freakin paniked and got so overwhelmed i cut my arm several times... (i had to release the pain somehow... i know that was stupid) then i just dont remember wat happened after that... i just talked to someone else and apparently he told me that this person has been really pissed ah damn it i dont really need to tell all thats happened but im leaving and its not because of you guys.

every one of you (specifically scorpio, usagi, makuro, yuna, rocy, sakura haruno, cowboy, capn sporky, mel, syrinx, and more but i cant list...) has been awesome no you all were like the most awesome ppl ive met on GS and no matter how hard the times, ypu struck throgh. THANKS ALOT!!!

but now because ive made someone really mad all thanks to this site and ME obviously and all because of my dumbass antics I gotta go. I'm not sure when I'll return, but i need a lot of time to let things heal. For sure I will not be a dumvass and post whatever I feel like on the blogs ever again. NEVER.

So i gotta apologize, then let time and God do their magic... but ill need a week and as for this site... not ever sure when im coming back.

If u want to contact me there's my email or my aim (aol, not yahoo or msn tho i have yahoo msnger as well)

I'll see you all it's been fun with you guys, but I gotta leave. Bye!

Sorry but I'll be gone for a while :( Geting on GS too much is really not a good thing and my grades prove it :cry: I now have an average of C's and that's just not good. So in order to focus my mind more on school stuff and s h i t... also I'm losing sleep over this :cry:

BTW I've uploaded some GazettE vids if you're interested in Jrock or visual kei :D

Here's them in order by release:

Reila

Cassis

Taion

Filth in the Beauty

and I'll upload more stuff in the future and be sure to leave a comment! :) If you're not interested in J-music then that's cool :|

Those two girls are still messing with me to this day... from saying hi to me around the halls (wouldn't that be degrading for a prep to say hi to someone who's emo or something?!) to random stuff (fake love notes ?!!!!!! :evil: actually I can't tell whether they're fake or not :( )

*sigh...*  -_-

Life seems to have gone down lately...

So after you at least comment, SPAMMING TIME!!! SPAM As MUCH RANDOM STUFF AS YOU CAN!!! MUAHAhahahahaha!!! :D

 see ya... :P

I'm making this brief because I have things to do and sorry for my absence but

I AM NOW SIXTEEN!!! 16!!! YAAAAAAY.... :sarcastic:

really everybody forgot that it was my birthday until I tell them and they go "Oh, sorry Denny Happy Birthday!!!" or something like that

All I got was $60 for a present... Well at least it'll help me get the Wii if I can find one...

Well I gotta go now (And I don't understand all these views... is my avatar (me) is really that hot? AHAH JK that's Aoi from The GazettE only one of my idols :lol: Wish I could almost look like him though...

I've realized that I've become more flirty (and the girls are falling for it!!! :D ) but it seems it's not me well should I become more flirty or something? I hope it doesn't go too far now AH SCREW IT I gotta quit and resume my normal life :evil:

Soorry but my absense may continue and I can only pop up randomly at times :(

Well later! :D