Hey, guys!

I was thinking about writing some news about how my term is going but I changed my mind. All I will say is that it is hard. I don't feel like writing more about that right now.

Only the lonely
Know the way I feel tonight
Only the lonely
Know this feeling ain't right

That's from Roy Orbison's song "Only The Lonely" and I feel the same way these days. I feel like I never have been so alone before. I haven't heard my best friend for about two months, my room-mate is so busy with her work and when she get back from there she is usually bringing her boyfriend with her and they are very tired so I don't have the opportunity to speak with them. And most of my friends are at their Universities so there is nobody left at home. So the only social contacts I have are with my fellow-students but.... Okay, lets say that I am not very good in communicating with them. I just couldn't find topics to speak with them and I am tired of speaking for lectures, professors and that sort of things. I need somebody to give mean advice what should I do with my emotions, somebody to speak with normally, seriously and without thinking if I am interesting to him/her. Actually that's my biggest problem in the communication - I am so afraid of being boring that I am really getting boring and I am saying so stupid things sometimes... I think that actually my fellow-students, or at least these I spend more time with - my room-mate and two other girls(especially one of them probably, she is the most clever from them and the oldest in the group),think that I am stupid and infantile but the truth is that I am not. I just want to get attention. I know that sometimes I am acting like a child but that's because I don't know what to say or what to do. I feel like I am from another universe and I don't belong to their world. I am getting depressed, I need a friend. I feel like I am going to explode!

See you soon,

Desi