i've decided to write. i've been hesitating way too long and finally i did. that, and i'm too lazy to log in to my blog account.

i'm free!!! at last! yay! um. it's a long story. but one that, surprisingly i like to tell. um, i had this friend right, a girl kinda shy and quiet. i met her at school, i was new. so one day she came up to me and said can i have your number. i gave her my number and we text messaged almost every day. but at school, she would never talk to me, it's like she didn't even know me. or at least, when she is with her friend, she wouldn't even say hi or anything. and when with me she'll speak in a very low tone i could barely hear her! while with other people, she just let it out! that explains her character right? not wanting to admit who your friends are but in text messages, she's way too happy and joyish kinda way. i'm not that ugly. in fact, some people tell me i'm quite a cutie. and i'm not saying on purpose! i even denied it if anybody says that. anyway, even though we are close there's just something missing in the friendship you know. it felt like, this is not right. something is wrong. and sometimes you think, there might be a motive to what lead her to suddenly become my friend. it's weird right? least you could say when you meet new people is say hi but instead she went for my number.

i finally found out what was wrong. she once had a friend who died from cancer. she was 7. she told me that i look a lot like her old friend. that friend. so, all this time all the messages and conversations, was not of me and her. it was of her and her friend. how sad is that? all of it was a LIE. a big web of lies. i felt so betrayed and hurt in a weird way. i told her that this has got to stop but she wouldn't listen. mostly because when i explained it, it was in english :P. hahah. don't mean to say it but it's just oh so hillarious. so, after the 'revelation', our friendship became sour. well obviously. it was based on lies and imaginations and a hurtful past. so everyday, i would find a way to avoid her messages and stay as cold as ever. it worked. but she always find a way to poke my sides. she started using me for her purpose. like giving her a ride. being her garbage can about boys and her **** drama with her best friend. last week, was the peak when she asked me about boys and said bye when i gave her my opinion. what the hell was that??

so today, on this very great day. i said everything. i laid out everthing about how i don't like what she's doing to me and using me for her own stupid purposes. and she said, ''well if that's the way you like it then fine, i regret knowing you" and here's what i replied "bye, nice knowing you" .kah333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333!!!!!!!!!. how good of a friend am i right? at least i said bye. and she did not. she even regretted being my friend. so as of today, i'm free. free of all the lies and her stupid drama. most of all free of her. yay! let's celebrate!

oh, this is tv blog right. oh yea, umm. foster's home for imaginary friends was good today. hahah. a rerun episode of mac daddy. gotta love the cheese. !