well my week has sucked except for picking up a copy of Bret Easton Ellis' Lunar Park, which i am half-way through and am enjoying; even though i still prefer Less Than Zero and Glamorama.

i beat Metal Gear Acid and the game was great and i cannot wait for the second one to appear. i started playing again because i am still 40 cards short and i want to use all of my awesome technology early in the game; it's a blast.

i am having trouble putting videos on my PSP but i will eventually figure it out

i am not very sure how i feel about an elderly snake and otacon in MGS4 but i have no doubts that the game will be wonderful. i also heard this will be the last MG game for Hideo Kojima which is a major disappointment. i was hoping for another prequel involving Big Boss after Snake Eater; but i guess written story history and an air of mystique are also very appropriate.

my painting and photos have really been bad recently and my classes are boring and mentally killing me, but i wanted this i must not forget; if left with nothing substantial to do i will go stir crazy among other things

i have been playing Killzone and i like it a great deal more than most people rated it or described it by word of mouth also The Getaway 2 sucks, the character is very stiff the whole thing is contrived; i loved the first The Getaway good story interesting characters and concepts and now they throw out a terrible sequel. i was warned about this one also but i thought i really enjoyed the first one how bad could the second be; very bad.

i want Advent Children to come out in America very soon, i want to see it

i want Dirge of Cerebus immediately

i have a craving for anything FFVII-related, i even wish the mobile FFVII game involving the Turks would be on the PSP

a lot has happened recently and i am tired. i got a roll of film back and most of the shots really sucked, i maybe saved something like nine out of the twenty-three taken. my painting is going okay. i finished a canvas recently and let it dry in the school's art building though i really cannot say how i feel about it just complete ambivalence.

i had tests on friday, a paper that i finished and was due, well 9/12, and i have more tests on wednesday. i dont see why i am complaining considering i wanted to come back, to have something to occupy myself with

i recently bought Bret Easton Ellis' new novel Lunar Park as well as a compilation of Garth Ennis and Steve Dillon's The Punisher Vol. 2; so i will probably start to read those at the end of the week. i have played almost 50 hours in Metal Gear Acid, i am obsessive; i need to have Snake and Teliko with the perfect decks to suit them and i just keep playing outside battles to win points to buy cards. it is becoming ridiculous. i have not gone and bought Burnout Legends yet, but i will soon. i recently heard that the UMD of FF Advent Children is not going to be released tomorrow, which pisses me off.

i think i will sleep

well i am actually enjoying school and i have been playing a lot of Need for Speed Rivals for the PSP, i have so many awesome cars -its great-

i have also been playing Metal Gear Acid and i really like it; i am a fan of turn-based strategy and to have a Metal Gear title to play is great. I cannot wait for the sequel.

I am also awaiting Burnout Legends and FFVII Advent Children which are only ten days away, so i am kind of happy; that's strange, sorry that really doesn't happen all that much.

I have been reading For Whom the Bell Tolls recently, sleeping, and going to class. i am ready for the PS3 to come out in a few months, as long as they don't delay it; a new Metal Gear title is what i need as well as Resident Evil 5 and so many other games.

I am so pissed about New Orleans, one of the only two cities in this country that i like. Everything was going to be semi-okay until the levees broke. i was (am) going to move there when i graduated in about a year, but the city will not be the same as i remember it which sucks.

i hope to speed through this year of college so i can move on and work a dead end job someplace

peace or something

well, it has been a long time since i added anything to this journal. my summer was uneventful and boring; i could not wait to get back to college and the sooner to leave college.

i did, however, read a lot over the summer including The Sun Also Rises, 120 Days of Sodom, Notes From the Underground, The Double, Trainspotting, and For Whom the Bell Tolls. I also played a great deal of the game Freelancer, more Half-Life 2, a game or two of Civilization III, and Mortal Kombat Deception.

I recently traded my GameCube and GameBoy Advance SP and various games and controllers to replace them with a brand new PSP system (I always was a sucker for Sony products). I bought Darkstalkers, Need for Speed, and Metal Gear AC!D; and i cannot wait for Metal Gear AC!D 2 as well as Burnout Legends and Grand Theft Auto Liberty Stories. What i am looking forward to the most is Final Fantasy Advent Children -FFVII is by far my favorite FF- and, of course, Final Fantasy VII Crisis Core.

I recently saw the update of the opening sequence of Final Fantasy VII for the PS3 and it was breathtaking. I hope that Square will rerelease FFVII for the PS3. I have waiting for a graphical, innovative, all around improved version of one of the best games that i have ever played.

anyway back in college -trudging along-

ciao

i finished MGS 3 yesterday evening, after four or six months of off and on play and all it took at the end was just 25 hours to complete; amazing. the game was wonderful, definitely my favorite of the playstation metal gears and probably the best story and characters of any of them all, even though the first one (The first one) was tense, the characters of the first Metal Gear Solid were great; but this game was just brilliant, i loved it and i am sorry it is over.

i bought Hero with Jet Li over the weekend with a gift card from Blockbuster, it is really a great movie and i watched it earlier today.

i felt horrible later in the late afternoon and early evening but i took care of that in short order

another week of school ahead, boring; i am tired.

soon it will be over and i can watch the final Star Wars movie and go to the beach for weeks on end and do nothing but read, sleep, and play video games

nothing really important just had to say that i beat MGS 3 and loved it

i hate 11:11

night

hard to believe that it has been four months since i have written anything in this space; too busy, too zoned out, who knows? but what i can tell you is that i do not.

i beat The Masquerade four times once as each of the following: malkavian, tremere, toreador, ventrue. the game was great and even though the ventrue and tremere were probably my most powerful i still hold that the malkavian was the best to play. i am half-way through half-life two and i beat The Sith Lords three times all different classes, all dark side; i know. i am just screwing around in GTA, i came and took the hood back, killed big smoke, and now i am just chillin'. i beat resident evil 4 and i loved it, i am playing through it again just for the extras, but mostly sticking to The Mercenaries mini-game, which is very fun. i am playing Freelancer at the moment and i am enjoying.

i did end of seeing The Machinist in NY over christmas and i liked it a great deal, also saw Hotel Rwanda which was great.

i haven't been going to class very much, i turn in my papers and take my tests, but other than that i have been sleeping and i may or may not be in a great deal of trouble concerning my attendance, but what is done is done.

I have been reading the Lucifer graphic novels, Sin City graphic novels, Virtual Unrealities by Alfred Bester, and i dont know if i said that i read Junky and Queer by William S. Burroughs but i have; its been so long i do not even remember if i wrote it somewhere or not

megan dropped me for another guy about two months ago, i was pretty broken up but it was not like i did not see that one coming, which i can truthfully say i did; but this has been drowned out, along with what i hope will be the rest of my memory banks fairly soon.

i have become inconsistent in my watching of my only TV show "24", which is unheard of for me, considering i would never, ever miss a single episode for three seasons, now i am just blah.

i saw Assault on Precinct 13 and enjoyed it thoroughly, though i never saw the John Carpenter original, i saw The Ring 2 which was terrible, i rented The Forgotten and found it laughable in a "Frailty" kind of way, i also rented The Grudge which had some atmosphere that was very attractive, and i rented The Motorcycle Diaries which was very good.

i guess i know i should go to my classes tomorrow but i just dont know if i will make it, all so boring and so much money for such a tiny piece of paper, baffling.

i was dismayed at the news of Dr. Thompson's suicide, but i cannot blame him, but i will miss him being in the world and i will miss any new printed materials from the good doctor; i heard about a cannon and a funeral at Woody Creek in August i think i might have to attend, after all he was one of my favorite writers, sometimes his wit could bring me out of a slump and i always appreciated this.

nine inch nails and system of a down have new CDs coming out very soon, just in time i should think

time

i need to go back to NY, this will only be a temporary reprieve and i will be back to the same hole once i get back

i may sound calm cool and collected but do not let this fool you

good night

exams are over and i have a month off for my break and i can finally concentrate on my video games

i have been playing a great deal of GTA and MGS and i am loving these games so much, its great

all of my tests went well or so i believe at this moment, i will know for sure in a little while; but for the time being i am jubilant

in GTA i am currently in Las Venturas gambling my a*s off and having a great time, even video game gambling is addicitive, but i have been winning so this is good, i have customized so many street racers in San Fierro to fill my garages in and out of town with suped up elegys, sultans, and jesters

and in MGS

i am currently in a countersniper battle with The End, and this is so much fun; sneaking around with a sniper rifle looking for a veteran, i love sniping in video games and this is even better than the Sniper Wolf sniper dual in the original MGS

when i get home i will be playing more Vampire and Doom, i am currently on my second Vampire game playing a female Tremere and i am so much more powerful already than my malkavian was the first time around, i dont know if this is experience or just the difference in the clans, but the malkavian was extremely fun to play

i gotta go play some more San Andreas

peace

exams are around the corner. i already took one this evening, my last lab science, and the other day i received A's on my Anthropology and Government papers, so i should be thrilled right? i cannot wait until this semester is over; one more week.

i have nearly beaten Bloodlines for the first time as a malkavian, the game has been a blast; i am just afraid i played the best clan on my first go around. being a malkavian was very entertaining.

i have yet to get any farther in MGS III, i am still outside of the stronghold where Sokolov is supposedly being held by the KGB goons w/ their kalashnikovs that i cannot get my hands on, irritating. however as soon as Bloodlines wraps up i will definitely fall into playing this game for quite a while. as far as San Andreas goes i am out in the countryside with Cesar's psycho sister, its fun.

i will be out of here soon and on my way towards what i hope will be the best christmas i have had, knock on wood.

i feel the calm before the storm, i had prophetic dreams this past night and spent a good part of the day analyzing them wondering and now i am just here, i fulfilled parts of the dream that i felt i should, too strange to even get into, forget what i just wrote, "these aren't the droids you are looking for" wave of the palm

my sketchbook is almost complete, i have about ten pages left; then i will have to decide whether or not i will burn it while drinking champagne

i am reading a biography of Napoleon at the present, very interesting

i am so glad Alexander flopped at the box office, i knew from the previews months before it came out that Oliver Stone had really gone over the edge, though i do feel sorry for the blow this will have for Jared Leto, i like him, he is good people

no good movies coming out and i was extremely pissed when The Machinist was only released in a limited number of venues

i cannot wait for Milla Jovovich in Ultraviolet however, her eyes...just exquisite.

hopefully the boatman will see me safely to the other side

good night

well the semester is closing down and all of this new video games that i have been waiting to play for a while now have come out. i bought GTA:SA and Doom 3 then i bought MGS:SE and Vampire the Masquerade: Bloodlines and then i bought Mortal Kombat Deception collector's edition w/ sub zero on the cover and two discs of fun. I have not played a mortal kombat game since i played MK II and saw that horribly done movie Annihilation, after that i cut off with the franchise; but then i decided that i should give it another go and find the roots that the original and its sequel were to my video gaming experience. With all of the awesome graphics levels and old school characters this is the MK game that i have been waiting for to bring me back the franchise.

in other news i am a total f*ckup with regards to most other things, which is why all of these wonderful video games will take me out of this place for a very long time. ahh....escape.

i still intend on buying half-life 2 soon but at the moment i have too many games to play, not that this is a bad thing at all, quite the opposite in fact.

I finished Neuromancer some time ago, great book and i have also finished reading The Trial by Kafka and Hey Rube by the Good Doctor, so i have been trying to occupy myself with myself if that makes sense

i just bought the new Handsome Boy Modeling School album "White People", listening now, and with guest vocals by Mike Patton and Del tha Funkee Homosapien it is a great followup.

i have a test tomorrow

i have a paper due

i am in a state of near frenzy

its only 6:50 and i am already tired

goodbye

well it is halloween, samhain, and this evening i have been out carousing downtown taking pictures of people in costume and the general state of controlled anarchy that exists in downtown Charleston on Halloween. Though this year is much more tame than the one last year, but oh well. I am not a party person or one who enjoys such merriment, but i had to try and capture some of it; and i can say that i felt better before going out there than when i came back. 3 Libras by A Perfect Circle.

i have heard differing reports about the release date for Vampire: Bloodlines; Gamespot and EB saying 11/8 while others are saying that it will come out some time after Half-Life 2, i don't know but i will take the word of the store and Gamespot over whatever else i have heard.

I nearly finished my second roll of film; i have one picture left. I am going to save it for Megan if i can get her to have her picture taken again, but who knows.

I don't know where i am going

a whirlwind

i hate my flesh, i need to escape

Happy Halloween

vae victis