hard to believe that it has been four months since i have written anything in this space; too busy, too zoned out, who knows? but what i can tell you is that i do not.

i beat The Masquerade four times once as each of the following: malkavian, tremere, toreador, ventrue. the game was great and even though the ventrue and tremere were probably my most powerful i still hold that the malkavian was the best to play. i am half-way through half-life two and i beat The Sith Lords three times all different classes, all dark side; i know. i am just screwing around in GTA, i came and took the hood back, killed big smoke, and now i am just chillin'. i beat resident evil 4 and i loved it, i am playing through it again just for the extras, but mostly sticking to The Mercenaries mini-game, which is very fun. i am playing Freelancer at the moment and i am enjoying.

i did end of seeing The Machinist in NY over christmas and i liked it a great deal, also saw Hotel Rwanda which was great.

i haven't been going to class very much, i turn in my papers and take my tests, but other than that i have been sleeping and i may or may not be in a great deal of trouble concerning my attendance, but what is done is done.

I have been reading the Lucifer graphic novels, Sin City graphic novels, Virtual Unrealities by Alfred Bester, and i dont know if i said that i read Junky and Queer by William S. Burroughs but i have; its been so long i do not even remember if i wrote it somewhere or not

megan dropped me for another guy about two months ago, i was pretty broken up but it was not like i did not see that one coming, which i can truthfully say i did; but this has been drowned out, along with what i hope will be the rest of my memory banks fairly soon.

i have become inconsistent in my watching of my only TV show "24", which is unheard of for me, considering i would never, ever miss a single episode for three seasons, now i am just blah.

i saw Assault on Precinct 13 and enjoyed it thoroughly, though i never saw the John Carpenter original, i saw The Ring 2 which was terrible, i rented The Forgotten and found it laughable in a "Frailty" kind of way, i also rented The Grudge which had some atmosphere that was very attractive, and i rented The Motorcycle Diaries which was very good.

i guess i know i should go to my classes tomorrow but i just dont know if i will make it, all so boring and so much money for such a tiny piece of paper, baffling.

i was dismayed at the news of Dr. Thompson's suicide, but i cannot blame him, but i will miss him being in the world and i will miss any new printed materials from the good doctor; i heard about a cannon and a funeral at Woody Creek in August i think i might have to attend, after all he was one of my favorite writers, sometimes his wit could bring me out of a slump and i always appreciated this.

nine inch nails and system of a down have new CDs coming out very soon, just in time i should think

time

i need to go back to NY, this will only be a temporary reprieve and i will be back to the same hole once i get back

i may sound calm cool and collected but do not let this fool you

good night