omg, I thought that matt was my friend, but when I knew for a long time that Billy Jo (his girlfriend and my X-best friend) didn't like me anymore, she told me first that I couldn't go into his room and play games with him because he would get mad at her if she did that....... which I can understand, kinda. Then her cousin(She's the one who told me on the bus that I killed my brother, may he rest in peace) told me that she said that she doesn't like me because she thinks I obsess over her Bf! that po-ed me because I am matt's friend and only his friend........ then me and his sister go for a walk and we get to Amanda's house and matt calls me out, and someone from inside tells him to tell me to go away, and that I'm just ruining His and Billy's relationship! It turns out it was Cass, And she was ok with me until Billy moved......... so he comes out and I ask him "So, when did Billy stop liking me?" and matt said "Ummmmmmmm, I don't know" so I asked him why he didn't tell me when I came down for his birthday party so I could avoid her..... and he said he didn't know. so I asked him about something else and Ashley(His sister) cuts in and says that it's ridiculous and he needs to tell his girlfriend that I'm his friend, and I told her I didn't want to make him choose. Then he told me that people in the trailer park were telling billy that I was yelling at him for doing something and she just started not liking me a couple weeks ago........Finally I asked him that if his girlfriend asked him to stop being my friend if he would do it and he said that if it was hurting his relationship with billy then yes he would and I was almost crying so I turned around and walked away, then turned around and asked him if he was going to come to my birthday party and he asked when and I said probably on the 4th or 7th of September and I told him he could bring Billy if she could stand being around me. I am starting to wonder if I even deserve to have friends if friends like that back-stab me all the time........... laterz ppl:cry::o:?

OMG I went to a friends house yesterday and my friend's dad and all of us started playing Air soft, that was the first time I ever played and I figured something out, I'm a terrible shot! so we were at war and I'd have to say that the other team won since we barly hit them........ But man the power I felt holding that gun was awesome!!!!!!! I could definetly see me doing that again! I don't know what the other guy's are thinking though, because they think that those things hurt! Oh, and we're not moving until October, or so I've been told! LATERZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My mom told me today that we are moving to a far away city, not anytime soon I've been told but it's still sad, I've barly found friends at my current school, It's going to be heck if I have to switch now, I'm a sophomore in high school and I'm just really upset about it. anyone have any comforting words? I could really use some. Although the two good sides are that I've always wanted to live in a city, but I meant another one, the one close to my school and tons of kids and stores and I could walk to anywhere........ The second one is that I've got a friend in that city, but I'm not even sure he's going to hang out with me. We aren't moving until sometime this school semester but that just makes it worse to say goodbye to all my friends!!!!!!!!!!!!D= D= D= :-(!!!!!

I was grounded on may 12 and I just got ungrounded on July 4th, I've been down to my grandmas almost nonstop since, swimming, and helping with the new house. I've spent very little time with my friends for two reasons, 1, because they've been gone almost as much as I have. 2 because I've been gone or I can't go see them, I miss them especially today because I was supposed to go see my grandma, but my grandpa got sick, then my cellphone is at grandmas for minutes, then my mom threw out the number for billy's so I could see if Matt was home, so I was stuck at home all day. Feeling horrible.

I have mistaken love for lust, heck im only a teen, but come on, that guy was hot! but hes also a total jerk, i don't know why I didn't see it before, He kinda acts like this guy victor i used to know. other than that i think i still have a crush on my best bud forever, Matt. And i wonder if his gf and him are only going out because of the same reason, oh, and the alger market band me from their shop from finding me taking a pack of gum, i offered to pay for it but they said no and i feel really horrible, it wasn't even my idea, and i know "live above the influence" but if my mom finds out she won't believe that because i stole when i was like 7 too.

Oooooooooooh my god! my first kiss, and it was french! i know i sound corny but wow! that guy sure can kiss well!